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Apr 04, 2006 11:15

I am not a pushover.

I am not a pushover.

I am considerate, accomodating, peace-loving. and a plethera of other synonyms for push-over.

So maybe I am a pushover.

and maybe you're a bitch.

There isn't anything wrong with being considerate, with bending a little, with maintaining harmony above most other things. I don't see a problem with not always standing up for myself. With not always creating a scene. With letting things go, with moving beyond problems. What's so wrong with wanting people to like you? What's so bad about letting stuff slide.

I've been a pushover my whole life. It's how I was raised. I was raised to 'play nice'.

I like it. I don't mind. sometimes I vent, sometimes I cry, sometimes I secretly seethe with anger. but if it gets too bad I say something. I just wait until that point.

because no one likes a bitch or a war-monger. No one wants to live or love or share with someone who stands up for every little thing that bothers them, who pokes at every wound.

so back off. Today I'm going to take shit from people. Today I'm not going to stand up, I'm going to quietly sit here and enjoy the day and not worry about small issues that will blow over if you let them.

and if that's what makes me a pushover, I'm not going to change.
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