got an email from the state of NC saying i didn't get xyz job. okay, cool, i knew it was a stretch when i applied for it and didn't really want it anyway because it included a terrible commute ( Read more... )

i'm totally prepared for this sorry ass shrink to blow me off tomorrow.

i hope they listen. but they probably won't.

i feel horrible, physically and mentally. this level of rage is not sustainable. it's exhausting me and killing me.

this has got to get fixed.

supremegoddess1 is sleeping the sleep of the just and righteous right now. we went to bed late after generally having alone time and me being angsty over my latest "open mouth, insert entire leg" moment. you see, i've been having a lot of those lately. i get it honestly; look at some of the dumb shit my parents have said over the years. my brother had a ( Read more... )

because somehow i knocked a stone out of my commitment ring. couldn't tell you how it happened; i was counting money at work and noticed that it was missing.

FUCK.

told supremegoddess1 and she responded with a huge gasp and then "shit happens."

dammit.

note to self: either go big or go home. make a decision; kill an option. don't get wound up tighter than a clock spring or gnat booty over things you have no control over. once you make a decision, leave it alone. it is what it is and it's gonna do what it does. stop driving yourself crazy with the details and just do. it's ok to think things ( Read more... )

sorry for the vague reference to a johnny cash song, but i really think that JC fared much better on his tennessee stud than i will on my wisconsin bike ( Read more... )