well, damn.
my shoulder is fucked up again for sure. didn't get today's MRI because they claim they can't schedule scans that close together, but i did get the results of the MRI from two weeks ago: instability, at least three swollen tendons, and arthritis. that represents what they COULD see, not whatever else they need to know. i still need to lose 19 more pounds before they'll consider surgery because to the VA, this is an elective surgery. that crying sound is me crying in relief because something is actually wrong with it.