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Well I haven't written here in a LONG time. But I figured it was as good as time as any. I'm sure nobody reads this anymore. And I'm okay with that, this isn't for anyone really, I'm kinda hoping nobody does read it. Maybe I'll make another LJ, or something. I'm sure Sara doesn't check this anymore, and that's partially what I want to write about.
Sara and I broke up briefly yesterday. She wanted out. I've been having troubles lately, with depression and stuff. She's been really good to me, and really sweet. I just have a really hard time seeing a lot of it. Partially I suppose because I can't believe it. I've found a lot in my life when I have really good things, something equally bad comes along and seems to nullify the good time in my life. That's a lot of what I'm dealing with right now. So along comes Sara... heh, I remember first seeing her. I remember seeing her in the hall briefly, in the stairwell, in Jenny's room, and at dinner when I went with Jenny and her family to dinner Sara was there too. We didn't talk at all cause we didn't know each other, but I really thought she was cute. But I didn't figure much of it. Then I remember seeing her at Oleanna. What a great prodution that was, but she was there. I remember eyeing her, and I'm not sure if she remembers that. Then one night, I was in Nick's room playing on his playstation, playing Madden 06 as the Patriots. And she walked right by the room, and a split second after she walked by, I yelled out "hey"... not ever too sure as to why I did. Or why she thought I was talking to her. But she walked by. I was kinda shocked, to be honest, cause I wasn't expecting her to. Then somehow we talked and she sat on Nick's bed watching the game. And I was leaning back and toying with her and playing and flirting. Then she got into massaging me. Then we got into wrestling a bit. And next thing I knew, I had invited her to spend the night in my bed. And we slept together that night. It was great. She spent a couple nights there afterwards. I remember I'd have to go to class and she would leave to go back and sleep in her room. Or she would get up earlier to go shower and then come back down for me before Theatre.
I want to ask her to marry me... seriously... I don't think she'd really accept it right now. But when I save up some money, I want to get her a beautiful ring and ask her to marry me. I want to marry her this woman. She's just incredible. She's faithful and loyal. She cares about me. And no she's not perfect... but she seems like it sometimes...
well... I'll write more later...
Sara and I broke up briefly yesterday. She wanted out. I've been having troubles lately, with depression and stuff. She's been really good to me, and really sweet. I just have a really hard time seeing a lot of it. Partially I suppose because I can't believe it. I've found a lot in my life when I have really good things, something equally bad comes along and seems to nullify the good time in my life. That's a lot of what I'm dealing with right now. So along comes Sara... heh, I remember first seeing her. I remember seeing her in the hall briefly, in the stairwell, in Jenny's room, and at dinner when I went with Jenny and her family to dinner Sara was there too. We didn't talk at all cause we didn't know each other, but I really thought she was cute. But I didn't figure much of it. Then I remember seeing her at Oleanna. What a great prodution that was, but she was there. I remember eyeing her, and I'm not sure if she remembers that. Then one night, I was in Nick's room playing on his playstation, playing Madden 06 as the Patriots. And she walked right by the room, and a split second after she walked by, I yelled out "hey"... not ever too sure as to why I did. Or why she thought I was talking to her. But she walked by. I was kinda shocked, to be honest, cause I wasn't expecting her to. Then somehow we talked and she sat on Nick's bed watching the game. And I was leaning back and toying with her and playing and flirting. Then she got into massaging me. Then we got into wrestling a bit. And next thing I knew, I had invited her to spend the night in my bed. And we slept together that night. It was great. She spent a couple nights there afterwards. I remember I'd have to go to class and she would leave to go back and sleep in her room. Or she would get up earlier to go shower and then come back down for me before Theatre.
I want to ask her to marry me... seriously... I don't think she'd really accept it right now. But when I save up some money, I want to get her a beautiful ring and ask her to marry me. I want to marry her this woman. She's just incredible. She's faithful and loyal. She cares about me. And no she's not perfect... but she seems like it sometimes...
well... I'll write more later...