nice one brain
ok so i think i just figured out my vampire matriarch dream. not really much of a surprise i guess. but it seems that i have been constructing situations as a means of controlling the outcome. based on a sense of insecurity i have been reluctant to let go and place myself in a situation that would result in my injury, mostly emotional. that even when i do think i am letting go i am kidding and deluding myself since i am at the core a control freak. the ironic part being that i feel more in control of my life than i ever have, but that isn't the answer. *sigh* ok thanks brain though i kind of realised that anyways.