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guess who loves, LOVES, L O V E S wireless internet?
there are no words to describe the feeling of someone telling you that they love you...even if its from a 5 year old boy that you babysit...if anything its more real...people throw around "i love you"s like its nothing but when a little kid says it, it's meant. thus i conclude this with there is just too much bullshit in this world. don't say those 3 words unless you got damn mean it...
so its official that next semester will be spent at Penn State up in State College. I am very excited to have my first REAL college experience with REAL college students on a REAL college campus in a REAL college town. Even if it may only be for the semester and summer, I'm pumped beyond belief. Plus I have the coolest house mate in the world..
lifetime movies really put life in perspective. "15 and pregnant" with kirsten dunst is the best form of birth control yet. as much as i say i can't wait to have a handful of kids and dress them in overalls and let them run around the farm, it's going to be quite some time yet. :-)
hannukaahhh is tomorrrrooowwwwww! haa like i'm getting presents...you don't want to know what hospital bills look like..think 6 figures...
i've been in my head a lot lately..but it's almost a good thing..right know i know what i want..i know what my needs are...and as much as i try to fulfill them i'm aware of who i am. i have not known anyone as well as i know myself. and even when i try to lie to myself, i am able to catch myself. unlike before...it's just such a transformation...i don't even know where to go with it. i mean i do..but it's like i feel like there is no place for me here anymore..it's just stunting my growth..it brings me back to how i was, and what i am trying to work myself out of...
i had dinner with amanda the other night..amanda is ME...it's almost comforting...i think i'm such a freak about how i obsess over little TINY miniscule things and make them life altaring i realize that i'm not the only one...and at this point i know why i do it which is so much more than i can say before...ahh i dono i'm rambling..
i want my drum set, i want my puppy, i want my det, i want to make passionate love to someone, i want the "i love you"s to be real, i want to change the people who have hurt me, i want to change the world, i want people to see the good that i see in them, i want the bad people to see how awful they really are, i want people to come to me with their problems, i want to listen, i want to talk, i want to love...
bring peace to this troubled soul
there are no words to describe the feeling of someone telling you that they love you...even if its from a 5 year old boy that you babysit...if anything its more real...people throw around "i love you"s like its nothing but when a little kid says it, it's meant. thus i conclude this with there is just too much bullshit in this world. don't say those 3 words unless you got damn mean it...
so its official that next semester will be spent at Penn State up in State College. I am very excited to have my first REAL college experience with REAL college students on a REAL college campus in a REAL college town. Even if it may only be for the semester and summer, I'm pumped beyond belief. Plus I have the coolest house mate in the world..
lifetime movies really put life in perspective. "15 and pregnant" with kirsten dunst is the best form of birth control yet. as much as i say i can't wait to have a handful of kids and dress them in overalls and let them run around the farm, it's going to be quite some time yet. :-)
hannukaahhh is tomorrrrooowwwwww! haa like i'm getting presents...you don't want to know what hospital bills look like..think 6 figures...
i've been in my head a lot lately..but it's almost a good thing..right know i know what i want..i know what my needs are...and as much as i try to fulfill them i'm aware of who i am. i have not known anyone as well as i know myself. and even when i try to lie to myself, i am able to catch myself. unlike before...it's just such a transformation...i don't even know where to go with it. i mean i do..but it's like i feel like there is no place for me here anymore..it's just stunting my growth..it brings me back to how i was, and what i am trying to work myself out of...
i had dinner with amanda the other night..amanda is ME...it's almost comforting...i think i'm such a freak about how i obsess over little TINY miniscule things and make them life altaring i realize that i'm not the only one...and at this point i know why i do it which is so much more than i can say before...ahh i dono i'm rambling..
i want my drum set, i want my puppy, i want my det, i want to make passionate love to someone, i want the "i love you"s to be real, i want to change the people who have hurt me, i want to change the world, i want people to see the good that i see in them, i want the bad people to see how awful they really are, i want people to come to me with their problems, i want to listen, i want to talk, i want to love...
bring peace to this troubled soul