Update 2
I guess my last entry jinxed myself, because now I'm temporarily staying with Jen, until I figure out what the fuck I'm going to do. Josh and I talked for 3 hours last night, things were perfect, wonderful infact. I was coming home this morning, he was freaking out without me... and then he let it slip about some girl he fucked a few weeks ago.
I'm devistated, and just want to die. I've thrown up alot, and my left eye is swollen almost shut from crying. Thank God Harley and Mike were there when it happend, I probably wouldn't be here right now if they weren't.
I can't even begin to think of anything to say to Josh, I don't know how I can ever be with him again. Lots of successful relationships have overcome things like this, and been completely healthy and fine. I can't understand for the life of me what I've done to deserve this. I have to hold on to my faith that God is in control and has a better plan, and this is just another test. I love Josh with all my heart, and thought he was sincere when he said the same.
I'm so confused as to what to do. I can't imagine ever living without him, but even the thought of looking at him, or touching him, or so much as speaking to him right now makes me down right nauscious. I just want to die. Evidentally I'm not that lucky.
For all of you out there who read this, because you hate me and have some sick obsession with knowing my life (you know who u r) here ya go, laugh your ass off, leave all the rude comments you'd like, hell, call my phone and leave cruel VM's.... go for it. But while your rejoicing in my pain, remember...karma's a bitch, and i've learned the hard way that what goes around comes around.
I'm devistated, and just want to die. I've thrown up alot, and my left eye is swollen almost shut from crying. Thank God Harley and Mike were there when it happend, I probably wouldn't be here right now if they weren't.
I can't even begin to think of anything to say to Josh, I don't know how I can ever be with him again. Lots of successful relationships have overcome things like this, and been completely healthy and fine. I can't understand for the life of me what I've done to deserve this. I have to hold on to my faith that God is in control and has a better plan, and this is just another test. I love Josh with all my heart, and thought he was sincere when he said the same.
I'm so confused as to what to do. I can't imagine ever living without him, but even the thought of looking at him, or touching him, or so much as speaking to him right now makes me down right nauscious. I just want to die. Evidentally I'm not that lucky.
For all of you out there who read this, because you hate me and have some sick obsession with knowing my life (you know who u r) here ya go, laugh your ass off, leave all the rude comments you'd like, hell, call my phone and leave cruel VM's.... go for it. But while your rejoicing in my pain, remember...karma's a bitch, and i've learned the hard way that what goes around comes around.