the worst is over. you can't have the best of me.
i stayed in bed all day watching tv and being sick and heartbroken. i do it to myself thou. kasey came over for a bit before she had to go back to school. we were almost crying because we both don't want to go back and go to class. she's my fucking savior! its only like a week and 1/2 that i have to get thru until we are on break and together and happy. until then i will be studying until i am a genius. atleast in 3 subjects. i talked to the boy today... only for a second... i told him that im coming to see him play with Lucy on the 16th and that we must hang out after and it it will be great. then he said that lucy and company will be crashing at his house so it won't work. i want to cry but i won't. i am working ob becoming numb to these feelings and refusing to let him in. so far, not so good. but we are prolly gonna get to together on the 13th instead and then as much as possible over my break. he is the busiest boy in the world. he said he had to go do work and he keeps signing off and on and its killing me. i hope in a few days it won't matter anymore and it won't feel like anything. he is great and we could be ever greater together. but who knows what will happen... this is a crush and am being crushed.
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