Numb Is The New Deep... Done With The Old Me...

[stabmeagain]

You ever get that feeling where youre nervous, anxious, and excited all at once?? I've had that feeling constantly for the past few days. It feels good to be wanted... I left from Cade's the day before yesterday, and he called me last night asking why I hadn't called him yet... he actually got pissed cause I didn't call him. I saw him today; me, marilynn, and zac went to Hardee's and he was coming outside as we pulled up. I was happy to see him. We talked for a minute, he asked when I was coming to stay with him again, he kissed me, held my hand, and left. I had totally forgotten this feeling until now. It's wonderful, to wake up and know that there's someone that WANTS to see me that day. I love seeing his number pop up on marilynn's cell phone. He makes me feel so special... He told me I was beautiful the other day, and that he could possibly fall in love with me, I'd just have to give him time because his last girlfriend, whom he love dearly, broke his heart and made him cold. We're talking about moving in together. He said that once he pays off his fine which is only $200... he's gonna start looking for an apartment, he keeps asking me whether I'm gonna stay with him or not. My mom has offered to give us a couch, and a brand new bed; and his mom is giving him a lot of stuff from her house as well... I really hope it works out with us, i'm starting do have strong feelings for Cade, even though I'm trying to hold myself back, I can't hold back fully. We've been through so much drama in the past 2 months, I think we can handle a whole lot more if we stick together. Plus, his entire family likes me... I mean everyone. There's a lot of people in that family.

Anyways... I think I'm finally, finally happy and content with my life. I finally have someone and my life doean't suck and for the first time in 3 years, I'm not depressed.