Spock/Kirk broken bond

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Hello lovely people. I've been searching for a fic read on ao3 where Kirk was cutting in the shower, got too close to an artery and ordered into therapy for a suspected suicide attempt. He was convinced that he somehow forced Spock to have sex during Pon Farr, they were bonded and when Spock recovered had their bond broken. Kirk was a mess. I remember he helped older Spock on his deathbed and lots of other angsty goodness. Anybody recollect?

FOUND! by ephillips1991 Thank you :)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/13491222/chapters/30938268