Reposting a Kirk/Spock Suicide Attempt Fic
So my last request was met with awesome recs and I have lately been slowly making my way back through people's past requests hoping to find something new and interesting and I have found it....only the fic in question is still missing. GAH MY LUCK!?!?!
Since this was requested January 8th I feel no guilt reposting it. So here is the original post. But if you don't want to go check that out this is the relevant information...
"The story's reboot Kirk/Spock, pre-slash at the start and slash by the end. Kirk is pining after Spock, and the mental stress of hiding that plus other stuff coming down puts him into depression leading to an old tendency of Kirk's towards suicidal ideation. The main thing about this story which really stuck with me was a scene where while waiting to meet with Pike, Jim's suicidal thinking crystallises into actual intent to do a 50-foot swan dive out the window, but he's caught by Spock and McCoy before he can actually act on it. After the big blowout Spock gets Kirk to confess the root cause behind his current problem and they get together. Memory's a LOT fuzzy, but that was about what I can remember. I think it's on LJ, but cannot be certain."
This fic sounds amazing and my only thought process on finding it was searching through kirkspock unrequited tags on delicous to no avail because: one I can't search for the suicide theme and two there is no way to tell for sure that the summary given would even indicate the above at all.
So I am begging and pleading that someone will remember this and help me out pretty, pretty please with internet cookies and Spock's cherry on top. XD
FOUND: HERE
Since this was requested January 8th I feel no guilt reposting it. So here is the original post. But if you don't want to go check that out this is the relevant information...
"The story's reboot Kirk/Spock, pre-slash at the start and slash by the end. Kirk is pining after Spock, and the mental stress of hiding that plus other stuff coming down puts him into depression leading to an old tendency of Kirk's towards suicidal ideation. The main thing about this story which really stuck with me was a scene where while waiting to meet with Pike, Jim's suicidal thinking crystallises into actual intent to do a 50-foot swan dive out the window, but he's caught by Spock and McCoy before he can actually act on it. After the big blowout Spock gets Kirk to confess the root cause behind his current problem and they get together. Memory's a LOT fuzzy, but that was about what I can remember. I think it's on LJ, but cannot be certain."
This fic sounds amazing and my only thought process on finding it was searching through kirkspock unrequited tags on delicous to no avail because: one I can't search for the suicide theme and two there is no way to tell for sure that the summary given would even indicate the above at all.
So I am begging and pleading that someone will remember this and help me out pretty, pretty please with internet cookies and Spock's cherry on top. XD
FOUND: HERE