I'm here, so I'm out of options. You always leave me out of options. You always tell me not to be so defeated, but it's you who defeats me. I don't even know if I can write anymore, I don't even know if this will work. You took my words and turned them into music. You were there when I was reborn, you are the last person who knew me as I was. My ( Read more... )

there are oceans of silence ( Read more... )

and then the night sets in and you can't breathe ( Read more... )

hi i need you but youre not here. no ones here i dont know how i did so horribly horribly wrong but i've made myself some kind of monster, some unloveable beast. i'm so fucking lonely. i'm so fucking tired of trying to hide the scars and the tears and i'm tired of being a failure and i'm tired of shaking and bleeding and crying and taking more ( Read more... )

sorry i loved him more. sorry i sharpened my teeth on you. sorry we were too soon. sorry you had to see that. sorry for the shrapnel. sorry we made so much noise. sorry i wasn't ready. sorry i was too weak. too small. sorry for mondays to sundays. i'm sorry i let you love me. i'm sorry i didn't understand. i'm sorry for never listening. sorry for ( Read more... )

i am ( Read more... )

The summer slips into oblivion and we are left with filthy fingernails and calloused feet unfinished. The fog hangs over us all and we chase reality in circles, gnawing at our tails in a fervid rush to consume our own decay. We are as yet incomplete. We hang with long arms onto monkey bars and swing, swing swing. We are complete devastation. We are ( Read more... )

"my own personal jesus,
just ate my homework.
and i took a shit on
top of the boat
now i'm wondering where it is."
- my father.

Holy crap, I'm making an index page cause I'm just that effing fantastic and organized. Someone get me a gold star for my efforts.
I'm going to attempt to organize (primarily for my peace of mind) this into arcs of some form or something even vaguely logical apart from the religious clusterfuck it currently is. There are HUGE gaps in here, in which ( Read more... )