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well I've been at sea the last five days, it sucked, someone brought something down to the boat and since he was sick we all got sick, I can barely even talk today. Christmas is like a week away, am I excited? no. I'm not at all in the Christmas spirit. I'm excited about Amber gettin up here, but not at all in the Christmas spirit. just tired, sick, cranky. I guess I just got the holiday blues, but since I've joined the Navy it's been like this. When you have no Christmas tree, or anything to remind you of christmas other than family telling you about it from a thousand miles away, or having guys on the boat talk about their christmas stuff. But for the typical single sailor it sucks, incredibly lonely. depressing. it just downright sucks. And though I know those guys overseas deserve all the attention they get while they are out there those of us still stateside, but nevertheless far from home, get forgotten about. We dont get special treatment, yeah sure the boat might make a decent meal on xmas, but it's still a fucking boat meal which is never that good. I'm venting and I'm not finished. OH in case you were wondering I still fucking hate the boat, no one here understands how bad it really sucks. so many two faced mother fuckers. Say one thing to me then turn around and say something else to the chief or the Div-O. I'm tired of being hung out to dry by those supposed to be on my side. I've stuck my neck out pretty far for some of thse people but still get shit on by them on a regular basis, well I can tell you that my care level about them folks is at an all time low and they wont get no help from this guy for a long time. I'll do my job, I'll do it well, but that's it. It's not worth it goin the extra mile because when I do it either isn't enough or it's just ignored. In the last 3 weeks or so I've really seen the true side of a few guys, I trust some much more while others MUCH less. Damn, over 2 fucking years left of this bullshit. Oh Lord I can't wait for the day I can take this uniform off for the last time. Dont get me wrong I'm proud to serve, and I typically like what I do, but the day to day bullshit of the Navy is not for me. But then I'm gonna go to college with a bunch of wet behind the ear liberal peace lovin tree huggin fuckin college kids. I'm glad I joined the Military before I went to school, I grew up and am more confident, self assured, and know what I want in life. Plus I'm not livin off Mom and Dad's dime, then complaining cause they dont give me enough. I've never borrowed a dime from my parents, I support myself and I'll s upport my family. Why is it so many bums out there I used to call friends can't get off their fuckin ass and get a job to support themselves and/or their families. Thinking they are too good to work crappy jobs, or some pansie ass excuse like that. Just suck it up and get a fucking job, work is work. It could be worse, do my job. Spend half your time away from everyone, making less money than most will on minimum wage while in probably one of the most stressful enviroments on Earth. Ok I'm done, Out