i guess i should be happy....
Well I signed on to this to write stuff to my then girlfriend at the time Tiffany. Never believing that this site would be the only thing where I can let loose with all of my personal turmoil (and I've let a lot loose, but most is private..). And now I don't really communicate with my ex. But still she is a part of my life, one of my only friends on this journal thingie. So I check her journal to see how she's doing. It seems she has made a friend (or maybe more?) up in Nebraska. I guess I should be happy for her. But how can someone be happy, when there missing a big piece of themselves. I am now incomplete, but I will not be discouraged. I will get on with my life, unhappy as it may be, and try again with this thing called love, one day. "Cause there is someone out there for everyone," or so everyone tells me. Unfortunately not now though, I have to figure out my life on my own. No one else can help me, not even God. I have tried the religious route once before, and look where it left me. Broken, unhappy, and alone. I may allow God into my life again one day, but for now, no one knows what's best for me but me. Hopefully one of these jobs I applied for will make me a good offer and I can leave this place.....there's nothing left but family for me, and I'm not myself anymore, so nobody should be around me like this. I will finally seek closure on a huge part of my life whenever I get my stuff back from Tiffany and I giver her stuff back to her. Then my new journey will begin, hopefully far, far away from this memory filled state.