v for vampires ch. 1
Prologue / Chapter 1
People are all different, right? They can’t change who they are, it’s in their blood. After they were born, they’ve been raised to live and behave in a certain way. Then they’d move to their own apartment and changed the behavior learnt from parents a bit. But just a bit ‘cause inside they’re still believing those things thought. They will have the same way of thinking, same aspect of life until they die. That’s pretty much life, right? You don’t change the things that supposed to be that way, you don’t change you.
I am what I am and there’s no changing it, not anymore. I mean, I changed once, but now there’s no turning back. Lightning won’t hit the same place twice, never.
You see, back then - before the changing I mean of course - I was normal, not so long time ago actually. No wait. Let’s start from the start of the start. And that would bring us few years back, to my oh so lovely twentythird birthday party where I found out that the vocalist of our band, the one I would call my best buddy (‘cause Uruha already got the best friends place and Ruki’s not even close to that, he’s buddy and I can’t even cry in front of him) was sucking me off and I was moaning his name in my drunken state of mind in the bathroom of the bar we were celebrating in. It took us good fifteen minutes to get back to the others who were only making fun about the fact we were so fast and that we even did it in the first place. That was pretty ridiculous when you think about it now, but everybody knew it was bound to happen the second Aoi opened his mouth and let out the words “I bet you couldn’t do it.”
And that sentence was after we talked about what would be the best birthday present for a man and came to a conclusion that it would definitely be a blowjob from someone who really knew how to do it. We all knew Ruki was one hell of a blow jobber even though none of us ever experienced a suck off from him. So of course after the conclusion we made, we all turned to look at him and that was the moment Aoi said the words. As I said earlier, we all knew Ruki was good blow jobber, but we also knew that if somebody challenged him to do something, he would definitely do it. And because the alcohol in our veins, Ruki didn’t even stop to think about it, instead pulled me on my feet and drag me along to the messiest bathroom I’ve ever seen in my life, shoved me against wall, kneeled in front of me and welcomed happy birthday before opening my pants.
After that the only words I managed to speak for a while, were Ruki’s name and quietly stuttered “amazing” as an answer to Uruhas questioning.
That one particular night was the only one when me and Ruki had done something more than buddies would do to each other, but that night was also the beginning of my super weird fantasies where my buddy would occasionally come to me and seduce me or on the other hand just appear from somewhere and well… seduce me anyway. All the dreams ended before we really got into the sex part (maybe because I’ve never been with another man so I didn’t quite know how it was done) and I would wake up frustrated and oh so hard only to go in to the shower to jerk me off with the images of Ruki in my head. That was least to say confusing and I have to admit that after the incident I hardly ever went to drink with Ruki again. To be honest I did nothing with just the two of us because I couldn’t get the images of Ruki seducing me out of my head. It wasn’t easy to keep my emotional life separated from job that was playing the bass behind singing Ruki.
So the only way of keeping me from going insane was to drink alone and get a good girl to fuck. And that was easily done in a bar so to a bar I went. And went. And went. Again and again and again. It did work out for a while, maybe because I was too drunk to have dreams at all but after a while it started to taste like shit.
I became depressed cause I couldn’t find a way that I would both enjoy and get Ruki out of my head. There just wasn’t such a way in the whole wide world. Now that’s real a reason to get depressed, isn’t it?
So that was the time of my life that needed to be changed. And changing I got. It all started in one specifically bright morning…
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A/N: so to say, i'm not a big fan of prologues, but this one is just too short to be a real chapter so its kind of mix of them both, 'k ? :)
also, my LJ account is making fun about me ( i dunno is it livejournal or our computer or internet connection, but something's not right ) so i had to post the titlestuff and text itself to a different post....
well i'm rtying to figure it out if u guys wanna keep on reading so this is only temporary yeah ^_^
People are all different, right? They can’t change who they are, it’s in their blood. After they were born, they’ve been raised to live and behave in a certain way. Then they’d move to their own apartment and changed the behavior learnt from parents a bit. But just a bit ‘cause inside they’re still believing those things thought. They will have the same way of thinking, same aspect of life until they die. That’s pretty much life, right? You don’t change the things that supposed to be that way, you don’t change you.
I am what I am and there’s no changing it, not anymore. I mean, I changed once, but now there’s no turning back. Lightning won’t hit the same place twice, never.
You see, back then - before the changing I mean of course - I was normal, not so long time ago actually. No wait. Let’s start from the start of the start. And that would bring us few years back, to my oh so lovely twentythird birthday party where I found out that the vocalist of our band, the one I would call my best buddy (‘cause Uruha already got the best friends place and Ruki’s not even close to that, he’s buddy and I can’t even cry in front of him) was sucking me off and I was moaning his name in my drunken state of mind in the bathroom of the bar we were celebrating in. It took us good fifteen minutes to get back to the others who were only making fun about the fact we were so fast and that we even did it in the first place. That was pretty ridiculous when you think about it now, but everybody knew it was bound to happen the second Aoi opened his mouth and let out the words “I bet you couldn’t do it.”
And that sentence was after we talked about what would be the best birthday present for a man and came to a conclusion that it would definitely be a blowjob from someone who really knew how to do it. We all knew Ruki was one hell of a blow jobber even though none of us ever experienced a suck off from him. So of course after the conclusion we made, we all turned to look at him and that was the moment Aoi said the words. As I said earlier, we all knew Ruki was good blow jobber, but we also knew that if somebody challenged him to do something, he would definitely do it. And because the alcohol in our veins, Ruki didn’t even stop to think about it, instead pulled me on my feet and drag me along to the messiest bathroom I’ve ever seen in my life, shoved me against wall, kneeled in front of me and welcomed happy birthday before opening my pants.
After that the only words I managed to speak for a while, were Ruki’s name and quietly stuttered “amazing” as an answer to Uruhas questioning.
That one particular night was the only one when me and Ruki had done something more than buddies would do to each other, but that night was also the beginning of my super weird fantasies where my buddy would occasionally come to me and seduce me or on the other hand just appear from somewhere and well… seduce me anyway. All the dreams ended before we really got into the sex part (maybe because I’ve never been with another man so I didn’t quite know how it was done) and I would wake up frustrated and oh so hard only to go in to the shower to jerk me off with the images of Ruki in my head. That was least to say confusing and I have to admit that after the incident I hardly ever went to drink with Ruki again. To be honest I did nothing with just the two of us because I couldn’t get the images of Ruki seducing me out of my head. It wasn’t easy to keep my emotional life separated from job that was playing the bass behind singing Ruki.
So the only way of keeping me from going insane was to drink alone and get a good girl to fuck. And that was easily done in a bar so to a bar I went. And went. And went. Again and again and again. It did work out for a while, maybe because I was too drunk to have dreams at all but after a while it started to taste like shit.
I became depressed cause I couldn’t find a way that I would both enjoy and get Ruki out of my head. There just wasn’t such a way in the whole wide world. Now that’s real a reason to get depressed, isn’t it?
So that was the time of my life that needed to be changed. And changing I got. It all started in one specifically bright morning…
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A/N: so to say, i'm not a big fan of prologues, but this one is just too short to be a real chapter so its kind of mix of them both, 'k ? :)
also, my LJ account is making fun about me ( i dunno is it livejournal or our computer or internet connection, but something's not right ) so i had to post the titlestuff and text itself to a different post....
well i'm rtying to figure it out if u guys wanna keep on reading so this is only temporary yeah ^_^