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Do you ever feel like your growing up really fast in such a short period of time? That's exactly how I feel right now. The amount of responsibility I have been displaying is abnormal. I've always been the type to sit on my ass then be active- my how the tables have turned.
All joking aside i think it has a lot to do with my acquaintances. Being the youngest of four I have always gotten along with older people as oppose to people in my age bracket. Looking at all of my acquaintances/friends (25-36) I am seeing a very basic trend. No offense to them, they are happy and satisfied but very few suffer from actual ambition. Sure they have great paying jobs but they're still doing the same shit they were doing five years prior- sitting on their couch getting high and blowing their money on shows and bars. It's fun and all but...I quit smoking weed when I was 19/20 and I've never been too reliant on liquor for a good time. I find myself spending less time with people because of my writing and they don't seem to care. Then again why should they?
A couple of nights ago I dropped by my sisters pad to watch a 70's puppet porn by the guy who did Deep throat, It's called Let my Puppets Come after about a half hour I disappeared from the pack with another. We had been playing around with the idea of making movies together (him being a film maker and me being a writer). Finally we set a date to brainstorm and get the ball rolling. Excited and giddy over the new project I confessed to him that I felt I had been sitting on my ass for 5 years and have really been trying to apply myself. He laughed and said "Honey, try 9 years!"
I then reflected on the idea that: At that moment the youngest person (23) in the house and the oldest(32) were physically making the decision to break from the pack and do something with their lives while everyone else sat on the couch watching a real woman throw fruit at a puppet man wearing her underwear.
All joking aside i think it has a lot to do with my acquaintances. Being the youngest of four I have always gotten along with older people as oppose to people in my age bracket. Looking at all of my acquaintances/friends (25-36) I am seeing a very basic trend. No offense to them, they are happy and satisfied but very few suffer from actual ambition. Sure they have great paying jobs but they're still doing the same shit they were doing five years prior- sitting on their couch getting high and blowing their money on shows and bars. It's fun and all but...I quit smoking weed when I was 19/20 and I've never been too reliant on liquor for a good time. I find myself spending less time with people because of my writing and they don't seem to care. Then again why should they?
A couple of nights ago I dropped by my sisters pad to watch a 70's puppet porn by the guy who did Deep throat, It's called Let my Puppets Come after about a half hour I disappeared from the pack with another. We had been playing around with the idea of making movies together (him being a film maker and me being a writer). Finally we set a date to brainstorm and get the ball rolling. Excited and giddy over the new project I confessed to him that I felt I had been sitting on my ass for 5 years and have really been trying to apply myself. He laughed and said "Honey, try 9 years!"
I then reflected on the idea that: At that moment the youngest person (23) in the house and the oldest(32) were physically making the decision to break from the pack and do something with their lives while everyone else sat on the couch watching a real woman throw fruit at a puppet man wearing her underwear.