The Truth/No More Heroes

[aesopunbroken]

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1)[POST MISSION][Mad was near catatonic when she was brought back to the Chalice. Whatever wounds she had were relatively minor - the fact that she managed to get away from

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[zetahatsudo]

[Lying to her? Really?] That goes without saying. Fate's ten and she's able to out pace my Zeta Gundam easily. There's always someone better, just a fact of life.

But on the subject of lies, how can you know that? [a touch ridiculous, really] Do my words sound like that of a liar? Or are you just saying that to feel better about yourself, to justify staying in this state, and to constantly perpetuate it?

[Isn't experience a wonderful thing, Kamille?] It's nice, isn't it? Being able to hang on to one thing, blocking out anything else people have to say about it just so you can keep clutching your one personal truth, no matter how horrific or self-punishing it is, it gives people a certain type of solace in their despair. It'd be a goddamn lie to say that it makes people like you, people like us, happy, but it does give us something to do, something to focus on so that we can ignore the blinding hurt in our hearts.

A lot can be said about what you told me, that little factoid your obsessing over. If I were to say that you think that a lot of people here, if not every single god damn one of us on this ship is a bald-face liar, would I be right?

[noliesnohero]

Feeling.... better about myself...?

[She felt something drum in her ears. Her heartbeat.]

FEELING BETTER ABOUT MYSELF?!?!?!

[Oh that might have not been the best set of words to use there.]

YOU ACTUALLY THINK I WANT TO FEEL LIKE THIS?! YOU THINK I'M HAPPY ABOUT HAVING MY ENTIRE LIFE TURN OUT TO BE ONE HUGE FUCKING LIE ONE AFTER ANOTHER?!

Even if it was just fucking that, I could've went on! But NO! You want to learn what ELSE I figured out?! HEROES ARE A FUCKING LIE!!! THE BIGGEST ONE THERE IS!

[She grabs Kamille by the collar, those eyes were looking rather wild there.]

Justice? Honor? FAITH?! PROTECTING PEOPLE?! SAVING THEM?!?!?!

I SPENT MY ENTIRE LIFE CHASING A FAIRY TALE THAT NEVER COULD COME TRUE!

[zetahatsudo]

[Kamille looks at her with level eyes. This anger, oh he knew this anger all too well.]

Did I not just say that calling it being happy was complete bullshit? It's definitely about feeling better about yourself though, because constantly punching yourself in the ego is always going to be a step down from being so pissed off at the rest of the world that you don't have time to actually GIVE a damn about your own state of mind. If that isn't feeling better about yourself, it most certainly is ignoring your own issues to focus on the problem that people are lying to your face.

The problem is that you've become so focused on what just happened to top off your string of constant failures and set backs, you forgot that at one point, in the distant past, you actually did something that was worth a damn. Was it all a lie? Judging by how you're acting, I'd think you'd say yes. But even then, it's still a fact that you helped to save the people at the Seattle Colony cluster from those xenophobic lunatics. If you call that a lie just because the life you were living at the time was one, then that means you saved no one, and those people are likely dead. Is that right?

[noliesnohero]

Don't even go there... Someone else could've saved those people... The Chalice is filled with fucking Ace pilots up the goddamned pipes! You could chuck a rock and it'd hit an expert in something in this place!!!

I KNOW MY FUCKING ISSUES! I'M WEAK! I'M STUPID!! THE ENTIRE WORLD COULD FUCKING LIE TO ME AND I WOULDN'T KNOW IT UNTIL THEY'RE LAUGHING IN MY FACE!!! I'M FUCKING NOTHING DAMNIT!!!

And you THINK what I did was worth a DAMN there?! I didn't do SHIT compared to everyone else! That Redhead-Alien girl did more than I did! BOTH OF THEM!!!

JUST WHAT DID I DO BEFORE OR AFTER!? Nothing but get my ass kicked over and over again! Get saved over and over again! BE A FUCKING LOAD OF USELESS CRAP LIKE THOSE TWO ASSHOLES SAID I WAS OVER AND FUCKING OVER AGAIN!

[She was taking rapid breaths, shaking her head... she was just so damned angry.]

[zetahatsudo]

[Ah, now this was something he was used to. He knew what she'd was likely to do, too, but it was something he'd be unable to do anything about until he caught her in the act.] So you saving one of those Redheaded aliens was a lie as well? No one else did that. That was you. It doesn't matter that anyone else COULD have done it, you were still the one to do it. You saved Julia, she'd call bullshit on you calling what you did a lie.

[noliesnohero]

AAAAAAARGH!!!

[The ensuing shriek of rage was followed up by a hard knee to Kamille's boys. Probably... not what the Newtype was expecting.]

[zetahatsudo]

[JUST. AS. PLANNED. Kamille was always prepared for attacks on the boys, when it came to how often physical pain was inflicted on him, it was common sense. It was why he caught her attack between his legs.] You have no idea how long I've been waiting for that. [And with a primal scream, Kamille HEADBUTTS Mad before backing away.] You want to see me suffer girl? COME AT ME!!!!

[noliesnohero]

[One problem, Mad grabbed Kamille before HE could back away. She replied with a headbutt of her own to his open mouth... that... probably hurt her just as much as she hurt him... but now he'll have such a nice smile!]

[zetahatsudo]

[Yup, he's bleeding in his mouth pretty badly, but he's not just gonna take that. He's punching her in the gut then grabbing her arm while she's winded to judo-toss her away!]

[spits out the blood in his mouth.] Come on, Mad, get angry and shut me up!

[noliesnohero]

[Problem there Kamille, those punches weren't winding her at all. Sure they hurt but she can take one HELL of a beating! That toss you attempted sadly ends with her pulling off a screaming charge to slam you back first into the wall in a bone-rattling crash - nothing's broken, but wow - the whole world is ringing.]

[zetahatsudo]

[Oh yeah, he can feel the ringing, alright. He stumbled up to his feet though, grit his teeth and growled at Mad in a challenging tone. He wasn't going to kick it so easily, girly.] I'm no Ryoma, but I can take it like the best of them. I'm not done yet! [he shot forward with a knee-strike!]