mmm not so much...
im coming to the realization one step at a time that im not a very smart girl but i do want to change...i have a life that i should love and i should love who i am...still, i dont appreciate what i should, i dont go to school as often as i should, i cant make up my mind about important things that i should, i dont plan ahead, im destroying my body, and i take advantage of things and people that i shouldnt....i feel like im starting to go down hill. i just wish i could be happy and normal. but i dont think i am. i have no energy anymore i dont want to start getting headaches again. im trying to get addicted when most are trying to quit. i dont know whats wrong with me. i hide it so well though that it's hard to stop. but sometimes i dont and people know. i love my parents though and wish i had never said a bad thing about them even when they do act irrational or "crazy" theyre just trying to help cause they care about me. im so stressed out too. it's all getting out of hand. and if i see one more person who asks me why im not in mandarin ill kill. i dont even want to see yall anymore. i come out there for 2 reasons and you're not one of them. you wont even see this though so ill shut up. looks like downhill's the way to be? im ready for a change already