ARGH!
everything i do is an inconvience to my family. i can't hang out with my friends unless i check with my mom's schedule, the places she wants or needs to go, etc. it's either a screaming match, a guilt trip or something else. and it just turns into me neglecting my friends. I know i have to take care of my mom, but it puts some tension on some friendships, people who i love tremendously. I'm a kid, and i want to act like a kid, i'm sick and tired of playing the roles of care taker, wife and mommy. maybe im a bad daughter, but im not good at this, and i certaintly have less patience than my dad who doesn't have a whole lot. i miss school so much, i could do w/e i want and hang out with my friends and only need to care about me and what i need to get done, with occasionally caring about other people, i know it's selfish but it's true, it's so good to be independent, and it's so trying coming home and losing all of that. maybe that makes me a bad person, idk