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i feel kinda blah, but at least the sun is out for a change =)
I talked to my brother last night, we had a few laughs, and i tried convincing him about something that Jen's dad told me yesterday, but it turns out he was kidding (or lying lol im just gullible i guess), oh well. it's good to talk to him, i love my brother =D
mom and i went to the mall today! I got 2 pretty shirts and 4 tank tops and a cool little wallet =D
I like hanging out with my friends and seeing Jen practically every day, we're always there for eachother i like that, if im upset she's the one who loses more sleep over it than I do lol.
sometimes I wish that some things could go back to the way they were, it's amazing how fast things change even those things that i thought were my rock, sold and never changing, it saddens me about how relationships change, but oh well. it's wierd knowing that i can live without the people i thought i couldnt and find such happiness in new and different relationships, gotta say i deffinitely miss my uha girls.
I hate that the weather was so bad this weekend, the quonsett air show is my absolute favorite part of the summer and i could hear the planes but i couldnt see any of them, it makes me sad that we all had to miss it this year. i think i like the air show even better than the 4th of july..maybe =(
Alex and I keep fighting (two nights in a row) that's why i didn't see him this past weekend, which is weird cuz I dreampt we had a fight and thne it happened..
and I have dreams about lenny almost every night, sometimes they're nice and sometimes not..
either way the whole thing with alex and the dreams about both boys is just very frustrating and upsetting, i wish i could find someone that doesnt hurt my heart, but i guess those things tend to come when you're not looking.
sorry for the melancholy entry, but that's how i feel..don't get me wrong, I'm not not happy, but there are just some things that make me sad.
I talked to my brother last night, we had a few laughs, and i tried convincing him about something that Jen's dad told me yesterday, but it turns out he was kidding (or lying lol im just gullible i guess), oh well. it's good to talk to him, i love my brother =D
mom and i went to the mall today! I got 2 pretty shirts and 4 tank tops and a cool little wallet =D
I like hanging out with my friends and seeing Jen practically every day, we're always there for eachother i like that, if im upset she's the one who loses more sleep over it than I do lol.
sometimes I wish that some things could go back to the way they were, it's amazing how fast things change even those things that i thought were my rock, sold and never changing, it saddens me about how relationships change, but oh well. it's wierd knowing that i can live without the people i thought i couldnt and find such happiness in new and different relationships, gotta say i deffinitely miss my uha girls.
I hate that the weather was so bad this weekend, the quonsett air show is my absolute favorite part of the summer and i could hear the planes but i couldnt see any of them, it makes me sad that we all had to miss it this year. i think i like the air show even better than the 4th of july..maybe =(
Alex and I keep fighting (two nights in a row) that's why i didn't see him this past weekend, which is weird cuz I dreampt we had a fight and thne it happened..
and I have dreams about lenny almost every night, sometimes they're nice and sometimes not..
either way the whole thing with alex and the dreams about both boys is just very frustrating and upsetting, i wish i could find someone that doesnt hurt my heart, but i guess those things tend to come when you're not looking.
sorry for the melancholy entry, but that's how i feel..don't get me wrong, I'm not not happy, but there are just some things that make me sad.