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Geez, I haven't written in a while. I wanted to write a bunch of stuff in the last week but my computer is completely gay and wouldn't let me, and now i forget.
Ben...
I don't know about him anymore. We flirt like all the time and everyday we flirt like more and more. I don't want to start to like him agian because i know that there is no possible relationship in our future and that we are compatible because we are both total flirts. It's so much fun to flirt with him. On Wednesday, I think, at track practice Mr. Dines had us run 5 miles on teh course, and for sokme reason Ben stayed behind and ran with me. The whole time we were joking around and pushing each other and what not. Then I hung out with all the guys up in the woods and that was fun. And then Ben cmae and ran wiht me again until I had to go to triple jump. In Spanish, I always spend the entire period turned around facing Anna; thereofre, I talk to Ben and stuff because he sits diagonally behing Anna. But Anna is getting her tonsils out so she wasn't in school today, so I was all worried that I wouldn't get to talk to Ben for liek a week in that class while she was gone because I wouldn't be turned around all the time. So, I'm sitting in class and a hand reaches over m shoulder and tries to push my pencil off my desk. I look back and Ben's sitting behind me. I was like score. So today we got even closer, because his face would be like right behind my head talking to me and I'd turn around and he'd be right thee and we would like joke around and make fun of each other with like our noses so close the were practically touching. Why does Ben have to be such a Mormon man whore? He would so be dating material. Then, I get so caught up in flirting with this kid that I don't pay attention to anyone else that could bean elegible bachelor. I realy need to just forget about him, but it is just so fun!
I really do want a boyfriend now. I am seriously so jealous of Dan and Lid's relationship. They are together like everyday and can be so open around each other (i mean come on, they came to McGregor's party in spandex Ninga costumes). I want a relationship like that in the worst way. That's why I want an older guy. Not like older older, but not in our grade. All of the guys in our grade are such asses and they just make me mad. I'm really just in the mood to be in a relationship right now and this time am fully prepared to be committed. I am sick of being alone...
I've been really down lately. I really don't know why either. It seems like everytime there is a lull in the action, I just get sort of get quiet and zone out. I can be laughing and having a great time, but as soon as silence falls, my spirit plumits and I go into a weird stage where I am irratable and no fun to be around and give short answers and stuff. I think I truly am a relationship kind of a girl. High school tried to change me for a little while there but I don't think I can do it anymore. I just really want someone to be there for me and to care for me and to cuddl ewiht and kiss and, ya, i want a boyfriend.
Ryan is trying to pick guys out for me, and suprisingly he is actually really good at it. Normally when I ask peopple who I should like they just say "I don't know" or ramble off random names, but he actually gav eit serious thought and like analyzed it. It's funny. Abe is feeling quite threatened by Ryan possible taking his position as my advisor. I don't think anybody could surpass abe's greatness though.
Alright, that's enough pointless ranting and raving for one night.
Ben...
I don't know about him anymore. We flirt like all the time and everyday we flirt like more and more. I don't want to start to like him agian because i know that there is no possible relationship in our future and that we are compatible because we are both total flirts. It's so much fun to flirt with him. On Wednesday, I think, at track practice Mr. Dines had us run 5 miles on teh course, and for sokme reason Ben stayed behind and ran with me. The whole time we were joking around and pushing each other and what not. Then I hung out with all the guys up in the woods and that was fun. And then Ben cmae and ran wiht me again until I had to go to triple jump. In Spanish, I always spend the entire period turned around facing Anna; thereofre, I talk to Ben and stuff because he sits diagonally behing Anna. But Anna is getting her tonsils out so she wasn't in school today, so I was all worried that I wouldn't get to talk to Ben for liek a week in that class while she was gone because I wouldn't be turned around all the time. So, I'm sitting in class and a hand reaches over m shoulder and tries to push my pencil off my desk. I look back and Ben's sitting behind me. I was like score. So today we got even closer, because his face would be like right behind my head talking to me and I'd turn around and he'd be right thee and we would like joke around and make fun of each other with like our noses so close the were practically touching. Why does Ben have to be such a Mormon man whore? He would so be dating material. Then, I get so caught up in flirting with this kid that I don't pay attention to anyone else that could bean elegible bachelor. I realy need to just forget about him, but it is just so fun!
I really do want a boyfriend now. I am seriously so jealous of Dan and Lid's relationship. They are together like everyday and can be so open around each other (i mean come on, they came to McGregor's party in spandex Ninga costumes). I want a relationship like that in the worst way. That's why I want an older guy. Not like older older, but not in our grade. All of the guys in our grade are such asses and they just make me mad. I'm really just in the mood to be in a relationship right now and this time am fully prepared to be committed. I am sick of being alone...
I've been really down lately. I really don't know why either. It seems like everytime there is a lull in the action, I just get sort of get quiet and zone out. I can be laughing and having a great time, but as soon as silence falls, my spirit plumits and I go into a weird stage where I am irratable and no fun to be around and give short answers and stuff. I think I truly am a relationship kind of a girl. High school tried to change me for a little while there but I don't think I can do it anymore. I just really want someone to be there for me and to care for me and to cuddl ewiht and kiss and, ya, i want a boyfriend.
Ryan is trying to pick guys out for me, and suprisingly he is actually really good at it. Normally when I ask peopple who I should like they just say "I don't know" or ramble off random names, but he actually gav eit serious thought and like analyzed it. It's funny. Abe is feeling quite threatened by Ryan possible taking his position as my advisor. I don't think anybody could surpass abe's greatness though.
Alright, that's enough pointless ranting and raving for one night.