Finnished
When you least expect great revelations in life they come to you. They fall on your lap like a ton of bricks. Wheather you see them as such is up to you. I have had this experience.
Throughout my entire life, I have repeated a certain pattern. I become engrossed in one woman. Usually she is one that I can not be with, but regardless, I make myself sick over the whole thing. I end up miserable, lonely, and I miss opportunities to actually be happy.
I was in one of these ruts. Deep. But why. I am an adult now, I should have more control and be able to deal with life's unfortunate arrangements.
A friend of mine, who I hadn't seen in a long time, showed me this. I was in a place that I felt safe in. I didn't have to scheme, or lie, or manipulate people's emotions. I just had a good time watching movies and playing video games. I felt safe. I let my guard down. And I will never forget that feeling.
Now I am making a choice. I have to change this sad and useless behavior. I am moving on in my life. I have to.
Throughout my entire life, I have repeated a certain pattern. I become engrossed in one woman. Usually she is one that I can not be with, but regardless, I make myself sick over the whole thing. I end up miserable, lonely, and I miss opportunities to actually be happy.
I was in one of these ruts. Deep. But why. I am an adult now, I should have more control and be able to deal with life's unfortunate arrangements.
A friend of mine, who I hadn't seen in a long time, showed me this. I was in a place that I felt safe in. I didn't have to scheme, or lie, or manipulate people's emotions. I just had a good time watching movies and playing video games. I felt safe. I let my guard down. And I will never forget that feeling.
Now I am making a choice. I have to change this sad and useless behavior. I am moving on in my life. I have to.