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so he showed up angry
turns out that he was told that josh was passed out in my room
he didn't realize that josh was his brother josh
he was orginally looking for his check
to see where it had been mailed
since he had quit his job
he found it at my moms
he told my sister steph that they might all go camping together
when i found out that i told him i was angry that he had gotten her hopes up
with that type of random comment
i found out he told her that when i picked her up the next day
she and josh and i and stevie and lonna and that guy james went bowling that night
i got frustrated in general and went out to the car
josh and i talked and he calmed me down
so by the time i had relaxed we had gotten home to find bernie sitting in a strange car out in front of our apartment
when i got out of my car he drove off
he then moved his car to the other side facing our balcony
i didn't know that at the time
it was just one of his drives
but at the time i was feeling stalked
so the next night i aquired some 151
cbeta and i drank
i called bernie cos i heard that he had called about 30 times that day
when i called he was stoned
he told me he never called and i beleive him
but he tried to tell me that he never drove over
then when i pressed the question
he said he would talk to me the next day
i stopped careing and had fun with cbeta and josh
the next night he showed up and we had a talk
and now i know everything there is to know about that boy
before i knew more than anyone else
and now i know everything
at least everything he knows
*note that was not an opionated comment
anytways we had a really good night
he stayed until 4 in the morning
the next morning i was feeling good
that night i had begun to freak out about it all again
the next ngiht i went to work and was so freaked out i walked out on my new job
i went home and started talking out loud to a voice in my head
until i passed out
in the morning it was still talking and i was still responding
we talked about offing me
and i told the people around me
and they shrugged at me
with that worried look
i went to wild waves
next day i went and hung out with the little brothers and took them to the apartment
spent a couple hours looking for pot in covington
everyone was dry thank god
so we settled for some dark rum from my moms bar
bernie came over and the kids were in trouble so we took them home
he was actually glad to see me
so shocking i was just being paranoid
we talked about what was happenning
i told him i was sick of feeling shitty and making myself feel shitty
with my paranoia
we decided that we are both paranoid and neurotic
and that we both might need to work on that
he stayed the night
woke up in the morning with my head laying on his chest
and every time i tried to lift my head to get up he would
carress his hand though my hair and hold me closer to him
that day we decided to go and get the papers for grcc financial aid
and my car made some awful sounds
so we drove it and parked it at his moms
his mom drove us the the apartment
we drove to his new home
got his truck and a replacment motor and a cherry picker
drove to his moms
drove back to the apartment
and we stayed the night here together
went to his moms in the morning
i got nice and dirty
learned alot
then later that night he dropped me off
and went out with his buddy jason
and came back after word to kiss me goodnight and to tell me to go to sleep
picked me up in the morning
went to his moms to work on the car
on the way back home the truck dropped peices of the tranny on kent kangley
so we stayed the night in his moms living room
fixed the car today
and then i drove him home
says he will call me tommorow
turns out that he was told that josh was passed out in my room
he didn't realize that josh was his brother josh
he was orginally looking for his check
to see where it had been mailed
since he had quit his job
he found it at my moms
he told my sister steph that they might all go camping together
when i found out that i told him i was angry that he had gotten her hopes up
with that type of random comment
i found out he told her that when i picked her up the next day
she and josh and i and stevie and lonna and that guy james went bowling that night
i got frustrated in general and went out to the car
josh and i talked and he calmed me down
so by the time i had relaxed we had gotten home to find bernie sitting in a strange car out in front of our apartment
when i got out of my car he drove off
he then moved his car to the other side facing our balcony
i didn't know that at the time
it was just one of his drives
but at the time i was feeling stalked
so the next night i aquired some 151
cbeta and i drank
i called bernie cos i heard that he had called about 30 times that day
when i called he was stoned
he told me he never called and i beleive him
but he tried to tell me that he never drove over
then when i pressed the question
he said he would talk to me the next day
i stopped careing and had fun with cbeta and josh
the next night he showed up and we had a talk
and now i know everything there is to know about that boy
before i knew more than anyone else
and now i know everything
at least everything he knows
*note that was not an opionated comment
anytways we had a really good night
he stayed until 4 in the morning
the next morning i was feeling good
that night i had begun to freak out about it all again
the next ngiht i went to work and was so freaked out i walked out on my new job
i went home and started talking out loud to a voice in my head
until i passed out
in the morning it was still talking and i was still responding
we talked about offing me
and i told the people around me
and they shrugged at me
with that worried look
i went to wild waves
next day i went and hung out with the little brothers and took them to the apartment
spent a couple hours looking for pot in covington
everyone was dry thank god
so we settled for some dark rum from my moms bar
bernie came over and the kids were in trouble so we took them home
he was actually glad to see me
so shocking i was just being paranoid
we talked about what was happenning
i told him i was sick of feeling shitty and making myself feel shitty
with my paranoia
we decided that we are both paranoid and neurotic
and that we both might need to work on that
he stayed the night
woke up in the morning with my head laying on his chest
and every time i tried to lift my head to get up he would
carress his hand though my hair and hold me closer to him
that day we decided to go and get the papers for grcc financial aid
and my car made some awful sounds
so we drove it and parked it at his moms
his mom drove us the the apartment
we drove to his new home
got his truck and a replacment motor and a cherry picker
drove to his moms
drove back to the apartment
and we stayed the night here together
went to his moms in the morning
i got nice and dirty
learned alot
then later that night he dropped me off
and went out with his buddy jason
and came back after word to kiss me goodnight and to tell me to go to sleep
picked me up in the morning
went to his moms to work on the car
on the way back home the truck dropped peices of the tranny on kent kangley
so we stayed the night in his moms living room
fixed the car today
and then i drove him home
says he will call me tommorow