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Schools just bearly started and I'm already screwing up. I need to get my mind set straight, but I cant. I'm worried about so many things, but when am I not. Right now things are going Ok except I cant seem to wake up in the mornings in time for school. So I've already missed what 6 out of 8 days and some how I've gotten them all excused. I miss Fiona more than anything, so I've been trying to keep myself busy. I've been spending alot of time with my Co-workers. I just got Promoted to server at the new Cheedars on 183 and Anderson Mill, so come see me i work every night except Mondays and Wednesdays. Ive only been in mt new APT for I think 2 months now and my Room mate just decided that he cant afford it after he said he'd move in and help me out. I'm already hurting for money and that just made it worse so I dont know what I'm going to do because at the moment I dont think that I can afford it and I have this lease till november. Grrr, hopefully things will work themselves out. we'll see. Im in one of my ACC classes right now and my teacher is boring the hell out of me so I'm killing time on here. I feel bad because recently I've been ignoring alot of people and not purposely it's just Ive been a mess. I have 20 mins left of this class can i shot myself now please. I wish Fiona was here not because she'd make things better but because she's yell at me till I made them better. There's never time for anything anymore. and when there is I do something else rather than what i should be doing to get my shit done. There's so many things that I wish I could do, and Im trying to think positive but when all that happens is negative its kinda hard and theres know one to blame but my self.... GRRRRRRR ok Im done