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"I want you to do something completely different this week than normal." "*roll eyes* Yeah, okay sure." *Proceed to go to a LAN, meet someone there. Nice enough but stumbling through communication. Face-plant in Guilty Gear*
*Proceed to go to Work and go through the motions for the rest of the week* Yeah, that change... not much.
Still getting no where despite some sort of change from the usual weekend, I guess. Hoorah? :| The ever marinating feeling of "why am I still alive?" is there daily. I guess it's either some sort of nihilism effect, or just me not having any "meaning." But hey, the person I love eventually came around on their shit so hurrah for them. Maybe the same can be done on my shit? Hah, doubtful. I'm meant to sit here and struggle.
"You know, you put so much effort into keeping things the same, why don't you just for this week not do that?"
...Great idea, Adorable Ginger! Maybe that'll--*gets handed a card*--I'm sorry, there seems to be something interrupting *opens*: Ahhhhh, yes. Work and other factors that basically make this whole "go on a walk and eventually your depression will go away! :D!" thing total bullshit.
I should probably just Rube Goldberg my way out?
I want Tigh. :| >:(
*Proceed to go to Work and go through the motions for the rest of the week* Yeah, that change... not much.
Still getting no where despite some sort of change from the usual weekend, I guess. Hoorah? :| The ever marinating feeling of "why am I still alive?" is there daily. I guess it's either some sort of nihilism effect, or just me not having any "meaning." But hey, the person I love eventually came around on their shit so hurrah for them. Maybe the same can be done on my shit? Hah, doubtful. I'm meant to sit here and struggle.
"You know, you put so much effort into keeping things the same, why don't you just for this week not do that?"
...Great idea, Adorable Ginger! Maybe that'll--*gets handed a card*--I'm sorry, there seems to be something interrupting *opens*: Ahhhhh, yes. Work and other factors that basically make this whole "go on a walk and eventually your depression will go away! :D!" thing total bullshit.
I should probably just Rube Goldberg my way out?
I want Tigh. :| >:(