night # 1,000,001
As I told my roommate today. I honestly feel broken. I woke up just lost. I just sat there. Peopl would ask me how im doing and all i can put myself to say is fine. Im just numb today as well. Last night was night one million and one that didn't go well at all. And yet you have the gull to message me today if I did all those things last night to hurt you. Im not the one that was demeaning to you. I wasn't the one calling you a whore and a cunt and all of the above. I wasn't the one that was so drunk and had lost his tempor that he wasn't even human any more. But yet I am the one that hurt you! I am the one that was doing the wrong things. I am sorry but I will not support the man that is calling me all of this. who is flipping me off every time he see's me. Seriosly. Yet I am still getting blamed. I am sorry. No I didn't wan things to end up this way. But you chose them to end this way. I can't take you blaming me for what your ex's did. I can't fight them. Its not fair to me. I can't take that everything is always my fault. I have told my best friend for years not to put up with all of this, i wont stand by and do the same things. U going after him like that. The glare you gave me when I was standing in front of you. I will not forget these nights. You deserve a girl that can actually love you back. You ask if I'm done. Yeah I'm done. I will not waste my life with courts and cops and warrant. Always stressing that you may go to jail tomorrow. Seeing you cuffed and everything.... seriously.... cant do it. .
Im eternally greatful for aaron and drew. The people that seem to always be by my side no matter how much I seem to like to fuck up my life. Tehank you for giving me a safe place to stay. Thank you for everything last night. Drew got mad cause the one thing I told him was that I'm not worth it. To me I wasn't worth that fight. It wasn't worth it. Right now I'm just trying not to cry. Im trying not to break down. I want my life to start going right. I guess im just taking one step at a time.
Im eternally greatful for aaron and drew. The people that seem to always be by my side no matter how much I seem to like to fuck up my life. Tehank you for giving me a safe place to stay. Thank you for everything last night. Drew got mad cause the one thing I told him was that I'm not worth it. To me I wasn't worth that fight. It wasn't worth it. Right now I'm just trying not to cry. Im trying not to break down. I want my life to start going right. I guess im just taking one step at a time.