punches self in face.
so im total fuckingly confused at the moment. . .i know what i want but i can't have it but it feels like i already have it. i hate it. i got myself into something that i know i shouldn't have. my brothers are giving him shit up the wazoo and i hear about it. they say its nothing that its just the way they are--which is half way true but still i feel like a douchebag or something. and pretty much everyone and their mom knows ilike him so fuck keeping that secret. grrr! then he sends me mixed signals like just friends...more than friends. we met up at dq tonight with a bunh of other people and i walked in and went straight to the bathroom. i got a text from him afterwrds saying "you dont even say hi you just ignoreme i see how it is..." im just lost lost lost. want to punch self in face! WHAT DO I DO! To make matters worse his ex girlfriends family was in there hahaha and then coach asked him if he still had that sweetie in phoenx...and iknow i got all hot and shit when he said that...i was just like WTF and iknow my mom could tell. grrr! oh well im going away tomorrow and then were going out with some of my friends on saturday so well see what happens probably punch myself in the face times ten!