Revert to panic mode now
Got a call from my mom this morning. Apparently my grama's been put into the hospital. They aren't sure what's wrong other than she's lost 15 pounds in 2 weeks. Not so good. Her kidneys haven't been doing so well so they're putting her on dialysis, but still.....
When my dad told me about my Jedu (grandpa) being sick, I freaked. We visited him in the hospital and stayed perky, then afterwards we all cried about it together. Dad gave me some good advice, though; he said "look for that spot, that moment in time, when you can remember him best. Think about it when you see him here and remember he's still the same person." That really helped.
Well, now it's time to start doing that with Grama. I'm supposed to get news this afternoon if anything gets any better, but Mom's worried that she waited too long for the dialysis. Personally, I have no idea; I know nothing about medicine and sickness and such other than "I'm sick, let's go to the doctor and get it fixed." I'm staying at work to try and keep myself distracted, but so far it's not helping much.
I just, I don't get it. This is my grama. She's died and come back before. She's too stubborn to pass on to the next world. It isn't her time yet; she still has to be here for when I get married and when we all have grandkids so she can spoil them like her mom did to me and yell at them for no apparent reason, then buy them fun jewelry and call them silly yiddish names. She has so much left to do in life.....
I'm trying to stay positive; I'm hoping she'll be ok..... so pardon me if I'm totally out of sorts....
In other news, I bought one of those exercise balls, the really big, bouncy ones. Been doing some exercises that I think are starting to work and I've taken up bowling with Rabbit which is really fun. Bowled a 164 on Monday night; best game I've ever bowled in my life. I was pleased. School's going ok; I have my first test on Thursday which I'm pretty nervous about. Made a kyrtle, a chemise and stockings, just have to make a cotehardies now. Also working on the scroll for L and finishing up the Boar Or tonight. I have a lot to get done before A&S and before Faire; I still need to work on my documentation which is going to kick my butt, but oh well. Just keep trying, right?
(Can you tell I'm trying to distract myself more by talking about what's been happening and what I have left to do?) Rabbit and I made some goals charts that are hanging up in the bedroom and marking things off as we achieve them which I thought was pretty cool. Going over to the Brick-Bat Herald's house on Friday for Heraldry Hut to get our names and arms registered; I'm mailing his membership and my renewal this week so we'll both be paid members. Yay. Trying to get back into bellydance; I really want to sign up for a belly dancing class but I'm not sure if I'll have the funding or time to do it, but I'm going to try anyway. Just have to look around; school doesn't offer it anymore at the Rec Center. Oh well. So list time?
- Make Cotehardie
- Work on L scroll
- Finish Boar Or (MUST BE DONE TONIGHT!)
- Work on documentation
- Look for bellydancing classes in the area
- Hand sew scarf edging for my headress for my 14th century outfit
- Study for classes/tests
Hopefully all that will keep me distracted from the situation at hand. I'm already starting to prioritize it in my head.....
But, if any of you would mind who do read this, could you please say a little prayer for my grama? She's one of the most important people to me. I don't know how I'm going to manage if something should happen to her. Huggles are nice, snuggles are nicer, but if you can't do any of that, at least say a prayer or wish her well. Thank you.
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When my dad told me about my Jedu (grandpa) being sick, I freaked. We visited him in the hospital and stayed perky, then afterwards we all cried about it together. Dad gave me some good advice, though; he said "look for that spot, that moment in time, when you can remember him best. Think about it when you see him here and remember he's still the same person." That really helped.
Well, now it's time to start doing that with Grama. I'm supposed to get news this afternoon if anything gets any better, but Mom's worried that she waited too long for the dialysis. Personally, I have no idea; I know nothing about medicine and sickness and such other than "I'm sick, let's go to the doctor and get it fixed." I'm staying at work to try and keep myself distracted, but so far it's not helping much.
I just, I don't get it. This is my grama. She's died and come back before. She's too stubborn to pass on to the next world. It isn't her time yet; she still has to be here for when I get married and when we all have grandkids so she can spoil them like her mom did to me and yell at them for no apparent reason, then buy them fun jewelry and call them silly yiddish names. She has so much left to do in life.....
I'm trying to stay positive; I'm hoping she'll be ok..... so pardon me if I'm totally out of sorts....
In other news, I bought one of those exercise balls, the really big, bouncy ones. Been doing some exercises that I think are starting to work and I've taken up bowling with Rabbit which is really fun. Bowled a 164 on Monday night; best game I've ever bowled in my life. I was pleased. School's going ok; I have my first test on Thursday which I'm pretty nervous about. Made a kyrtle, a chemise and stockings, just have to make a cotehardies now. Also working on the scroll for L and finishing up the Boar Or tonight. I have a lot to get done before A&S and before Faire; I still need to work on my documentation which is going to kick my butt, but oh well. Just keep trying, right?
(Can you tell I'm trying to distract myself more by talking about what's been happening and what I have left to do?) Rabbit and I made some goals charts that are hanging up in the bedroom and marking things off as we achieve them which I thought was pretty cool. Going over to the Brick-Bat Herald's house on Friday for Heraldry Hut to get our names and arms registered; I'm mailing his membership and my renewal this week so we'll both be paid members. Yay. Trying to get back into bellydance; I really want to sign up for a belly dancing class but I'm not sure if I'll have the funding or time to do it, but I'm going to try anyway. Just have to look around; school doesn't offer it anymore at the Rec Center. Oh well. So list time?
- Make Cotehardie
- Work on L scroll
- Finish Boar Or (MUST BE DONE TONIGHT!)
- Work on documentation
- Look for bellydancing classes in the area
- Hand sew scarf edging for my headress for my 14th century outfit
- Study for classes/tests
Hopefully all that will keep me distracted from the situation at hand. I'm already starting to prioritize it in my head.....
But, if any of you would mind who do read this, could you please say a little prayer for my grama? She's one of the most important people to me. I don't know how I'm going to manage if something should happen to her. Huggles are nice, snuggles are nicer, but if you can't do any of that, at least say a prayer or wish her well. Thank you.
@~>~~