Something small can be one's whole world... *For my Hunny-Bunny*
Sitting here, on the 4th, about to go out, and I'm thinking about how things were last year. I say my hunny-bunny got me thinking about it because he was thinking about it, but that doesn't matter. Last summer this time I was in AZ and he was in NV. He still had the halo on and I couldn't afford to go see him again since I was going to be surprising him a week later (not that he knew that or anything :oP). Things were just so... different. It's amazing what happens when you almost lose someone you care that much about; you begin to realize just how important they are, how much they mean to you.
Kev's accident really shook me up. It brought me and his family closer together. I was the one calling them every 15 mins to give them a play-by-play of what was going on. I was the one who met them when they got to the ICU and stayed there with them, explaining what was going on. I was the one who they cried with; we all cried together when we finally broke down. His dad, Deena, Kurtis, me and Nana.... there were no boundaries because we didn't know if he was going to make it or not. The panic and the love was all there at once. Holding Nana in the waiting room while she held me, Deena coming in with a tissue, all of it seems so vivid, like it was only yesterday. As the summer progressed, I not only grew closer to Rabbit, but to his family as well. I learned their likes and dislikes, their goals and dreams, their fears and their hopes, and while I may not always agree with the way things are run, their family works because they make it work. They love each other unconditionally, just like my family does, and it's wonderful to be a part of that.
Now, over a year after the accident, they will be the first people that I will see when I return to the states and I couldn't be happier. I miss them, all of them, especially my hunny-bunny; I can't wait to run into his arms and hug and kiss him and feel.... whole again. I wear his ring, I wear his shirts, and I just feel closer to him while I'm here. It's an amazing feeling. It hurts to be gone, but sometimes you need to venture out on your own, and so far I'm doing a pretty good job. I just have to wait until I step off that plane and back into the arms of the man I love.
Love you forever hunny-bunny. You're mine, plain and simple. :o)
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Kev's accident really shook me up. It brought me and his family closer together. I was the one calling them every 15 mins to give them a play-by-play of what was going on. I was the one who met them when they got to the ICU and stayed there with them, explaining what was going on. I was the one who they cried with; we all cried together when we finally broke down. His dad, Deena, Kurtis, me and Nana.... there were no boundaries because we didn't know if he was going to make it or not. The panic and the love was all there at once. Holding Nana in the waiting room while she held me, Deena coming in with a tissue, all of it seems so vivid, like it was only yesterday. As the summer progressed, I not only grew closer to Rabbit, but to his family as well. I learned their likes and dislikes, their goals and dreams, their fears and their hopes, and while I may not always agree with the way things are run, their family works because they make it work. They love each other unconditionally, just like my family does, and it's wonderful to be a part of that.
Now, over a year after the accident, they will be the first people that I will see when I return to the states and I couldn't be happier. I miss them, all of them, especially my hunny-bunny; I can't wait to run into his arms and hug and kiss him and feel.... whole again. I wear his ring, I wear his shirts, and I just feel closer to him while I'm here. It's an amazing feeling. It hurts to be gone, but sometimes you need to venture out on your own, and so far I'm doing a pretty good job. I just have to wait until I step off that plane and back into the arms of the man I love.
Love you forever hunny-bunny. You're mine, plain and simple. :o)
@~>~~