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Mar 03, 2009 02:04

so jt doesnt want to see me for whatever reason anymore. he doesnt believe he can give me what i want, and he still wants to see me but he thinks things will get more complicated and shit. and all i know is im very sad. he was the fucking shit. and im hoping hoping hoping tthat he calls me in a week and is like im sorry i miss you. because only a week ago he was saying he didnt realize things would be so wonderful and he wanted things to be perfect. and now he doesnt want to see me. i must have done something or said something that made him feel that way. but i dont know what i did. and i want to know. and i want to make it right. and i know that stupid, i should count my losses and move on, but im a girl and this happened yesterday so im still in that whole i wanna fix it so we can be 2gethur4evur. but he was so fucking fantastic, and i cant be mad at him. but im so sad about it. it just makes me hate myself more than i already did. and i dont know what i did. and i want to know.
i just wanted things to work out. he was amazing. like serious amounts of amazing. and not like aaron, where he was only amazing when we were alone, and he didnt have many issues. i think it just got to him because he just got out of a big relationship and just being around me brought some shit back or something. i dunno. i know he likes me. i know for a fact. i can tell. and thats the most confusing part. i just dont know what happened in that week to make things so drastically different. we saw each other once and things went fine it seemed to me. nothing seemed off. we were just hanging out as usual. so apparently i said something via text (oh my god i hate talking to people through texts. things get FUCKED UP) or something that seriously bothered him. or just things mounted up too quickly against him. all i know is i told him good morning yesterday and got told all these wonderful things. and all i know is im horribly fucking sad about it. we could have been great together. and i just hope he calls me.
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