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god i always end up back at the same position no matter what is going on with me.
it seems like the more ok i become with who i am and what i am, the more people point out that those cute little quirks about me are actually seriously obnoxious. like me being a bitch is normally way funny, but now its like omg summer your a whorecunt. and me being somewhat awkward is kinda cute, but now its just god summer youre so awkward. and the youre crazy gurrrl is now oh my god youre fucking nuts whats wrong with you.
i just dont get it. its like everyone was all like "oh i want you to be happy" and now that im getting that way its like people are way fucking jealous or mad or what the fuck ever now that i may have met someone nice.
im trying ot make my life better for myself, to work for myself and dealing with my issues and become myself, and the more i do so, the more oppression i get.
i just want to be happy with who i am and what i do. i want to find someone to share that happiness with, and i think i may have. and i just want to let my guard down again and be myself and just deal with my life and do whatever the fuck i want to. i want to be a fucking adult and im tired of everyone keeping me from it.
i dont feel good and im irritated. and my entire body hurts. i hope all this is pms. i want my boy. and i wanna cuddle with him. and hes barely talked to me today. so uhh cue the panic.
it seems like the more ok i become with who i am and what i am, the more people point out that those cute little quirks about me are actually seriously obnoxious. like me being a bitch is normally way funny, but now its like omg summer your a whorecunt. and me being somewhat awkward is kinda cute, but now its just god summer youre so awkward. and the youre crazy gurrrl is now oh my god youre fucking nuts whats wrong with you.
i just dont get it. its like everyone was all like "oh i want you to be happy" and now that im getting that way its like people are way fucking jealous or mad or what the fuck ever now that i may have met someone nice.
im trying ot make my life better for myself, to work for myself and dealing with my issues and become myself, and the more i do so, the more oppression i get.
i just want to be happy with who i am and what i do. i want to find someone to share that happiness with, and i think i may have. and i just want to let my guard down again and be myself and just deal with my life and do whatever the fuck i want to. i want to be a fucking adult and im tired of everyone keeping me from it.
i dont feel good and im irritated. and my entire body hurts. i hope all this is pms. i want my boy. and i wanna cuddle with him. and hes barely talked to me today. so uhh cue the panic.