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so other than my son... *sighs* i dont even know what to talk about... my hobby is rapidly losing all its fun b/c people's stupity permeates everything no matter what it is... school is boring and stressful, stupid basic classes... i've had so much to talk to someone about lately and no one to talk to...i guess its time to go looking for new confidantes... i've had a couple moments of awesome learning and progress and i wish i could figure out who to share it with... at the same time i have a pit inside that i need someone to talk to about and i dont know where to go there either... sometimes i wonder if turning it all off would help... i am sleeping and not feeling rested when i wake up... i managed to eat a little last night and had to concentrate on not throwing it up... i guess as long as i have my son and a future to work on nothing else matters... maybe i have always trusted too easily... my father thinks so... he feels bad for teaching me to trust others b/c of how many times it has gotten me hurt... then again maybe the bad part was teaching me to think for myself... i dont know. guess it really is time to rework my life... and i am thiknking a damn near new start with mostly fresh faces might not be a bad idea...no i dont know where all this is going or coming from.. i jsut kmow i woke up feeling like shit and its like the third day in a row... and i am tired of it. so i want iot to change nad no one can change it but me so now i have to figure out how. cause i dont think i have anyone to help me on this one. guess i am just feeling kind of alone right now....and like everyone else is fine...