*only saw this post about an hour after the 'crash'. Bites his lip and blushes -- if Kakashi had been away when he posted this, who else might have heard?*
A -- ahh, about that... We might have to move to another room for now. You'll see why when you get back... I'm sorry.
[Private to Kakashi-san, hackable]white_needlesDecember 5 2007, 00:16:47 UTC
Someone made a post using Sakura-chan's journal, and I lost my temper as we conversed. *chuckles weakly* It's my fault for taking the bait, I guess.
She... it called me 'Haku-mama', you know. In Sakura-chan's voice. I haven't heard her call me that in months -- haven't heard from her in a while -- and I... I miss her.
*bites lip* Do you think things would have been different if we had seen her more often?
[Private to Kakashi-san, hackable]white_needlesDecember 5 2007, 07:22:48 UTC
They're playing with us for their amusement. I know it isn't that much different back at... back there, because ninja are tools that other people use, but -- this kind of use is so... trivial.
I want to see her again, Kakashi-san, or at leaslt hear from her. Sakura-chan herself, and not some imitation made by some cruel trickster. I want to know if she's alright, or if she's injured, or if she's alone, or at least if someone good's there with her to keep her company...
Do you... do you think she'd forgive me?
((ooc: Strike-outs originally deleted, but appears on the monitor as a water-blurred line.))
[Private to Kakashi-san, hackable]white_needlesDecember 5 2007, 15:30:02 UTC
My mind understands what you're saying. However... *presses a hand against his chest and tightly fists his clothes* I can't keep from blaming myself. What if something like this happens again? Will I lose you, too?
The other promises I've made are also hard to keep, but all of them... I've made them to my precious people. That's why breaking them is so devastating.
*chuckles weakly* Protecting her somehow was all I could do for her. Looking back though, I can see the impossibility of that task I've put myself up against especially when her move to Yuuko-san's teahouse became permanent... *wipes away the tears that have started to roll down his cheeks and curses himself for being so weak* It was foolish and selfish of me to believe that I could do that for her, out of all her other friends here who are likely stronger than I am. Zack-san's killing himself in trying to look for her all over the place, Tiki-san has a better way of looking for her with that Tease of his... who am I to think that I can call my friend when I... I can't
( ... )
A -- ahh, about that... We might have to move to another room for now. You'll see why when you get back... I'm sorry.
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What happened?
Tell me!
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*stares tensely at screen. Is tempted to leave and find Haku*
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She... it called me 'Haku-mama', you know. In Sakura-chan's voice. I haven't heard her call me that in months -- haven't heard from her in a while -- and I... I miss her.
*bites lip* Do you think things would have been different if we had seen her more often?
((ooc: Reposted to add in a few missing words. :X
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Haku...
*pauses staring at computer screen. Is not sure what to say*
I...don't know.
*Still stares at screen. Bites lip.*
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I want to see her again, Kakashi-san, or at leaslt hear from her. Sakura-chan herself, and not some imitation made by some cruel trickster. I want to know if she's alright, or if she's injured, or if she's alone, or at least if someone good's there with her to keep her company...
Do you... do you think she'd forgive me?
((ooc: Strike-outs originally deleted, but appears on the monitor as a water-blurred line.))
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*closes eyes and chest aches*
I know Haku. I worry about her too.
*Feels the inadequacy of the words, but feels like thats the only thing he can really say. Squints and reads the last line*
You haven't done anything to ask for forgiveness, Haku.
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*feels another wave of shame when he reads the last line*
I broke a promise, Kakashi-san. I promised to protect her. That I'm not even able to contribute to the effort in finding her... I'm so useless.
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You are not useless.
((ooc: strike outs barely legible deletes. ))
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The other promises I've made are also hard to keep, but all of them... I've made them to my precious people. That's why breaking them is so devastating.
*chuckles weakly* Protecting her somehow was all I could do for her. Looking back though, I can see the impossibility of that task I've put myself up against especially when her move to Yuuko-san's teahouse became permanent... *wipes away the tears that have started to roll down his cheeks and curses himself for being so weak* It was foolish and selfish of me to believe that I could do that for her, out of all her other friends here who are likely stronger than I am. Zack-san's killing himself in trying to look for her all over the place, Tiki-san has a better way of looking for her with that Tease of his... who am I to think that I can call my friend when I... I can't ( ... )
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I’m going over there right now.
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