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[spreadaloha]

so here are some updates... graduation came and went. weird how it's all over now. I already miss seeing all my friends faces every day. i know that it will never be like that again. i went into town yesterday to get lunch with zach (not with a k haha) at fire house. while i was in town i saw alot of people i hadn't seen in what feels like forever. Brought back all good memories and made me smile alot. Me not living in fallbrook makes it hard to see everyone. It really is a luxury that i don't have. i need to make more of an effort to see the people who matter before i leave. Im moving up to Fullerton August 1st. so i need to get cracking. I know that when i move up there so many things will change. some for the good and some for the bad. that kinda scares me. change excites me... but really does drive fear straight to my heart. im the kind of person who over thinks things.... so change really messes with this girl's head. My boyfriend is absolutley great. I really do love him. Im scared that the distance might break us up. i know people say that long distance relationships don't ever work out... but this is different. i know what your thinking... yeah right that's what everyone says, but i mean it with all i have. He is the one for me. i know i will never love someone the way i love him. He's the first love.... the only real love i think i will be able to find. I think if we really are meant to be together for always and forever no matter what (hehe) then i will find it's way to work it out. He is really supportive and knows i need to go yet he is trusting. i know we will definetly have rough rough times to come, but i think if we really try we can make it work. im scared for college. it's going to be so different. no parents to make you do things... i hope that i don't get lazy like my brother. and i reallllly realllllly don't want to party.... i do't mind going to a few but i don't want to be all about parties and getting drunk. so im not gonna be one of those college kids. i know what you're thinking (again)... yeah right! everyone does it. so, i just don't want to be one of them. its not that im against drinking... becuase if ya know me... haha... im not. but i just don't want to be all about it and never remember my college years!
big smiles! <3