brains are funny things
I've been thinking about this thing. It's such an odd little concept, don't you think? It's an oxymoron, really, if you think about it. 'Live' implying vibrant, public openness, and 'journal', all tucked away in privacy and retrospect. I don't know why they thought to put the two together, or why in the world it caught on... and yet here I am, reading about people's thoughts and lives; people I've never met, and probably never will.
It's almost like a reality television show, dontchathink?
There seems to be this neat little fascination with making private things public all of a sudden. As soon as people have secrets, another group of people want to see them, or read about them, or listen to them. Worse still, there's another group of people who just give it away for free, putting details of their personal and private lives on a place like the internet. Catharsis? I dunno, really. I'm trying to understand it too. But then again, I don't really watch a ton of 'reality TV', or at least the shows that follow around celebrities in their everyday minutia.
But even then, they're -celebrities-. Their lives are fantastic even in their most mundane.
But you and I, on the other hand, aren't fabulous in the least. We're just people. People aren't very fabulous. They just sort of 'are', and that's cool, but it's nothing to write home about. Literally.
Yet there I go, writing whole paragraphs and then editing myself because I didn't like how it sounded or came across. Who am I trying to impress? I'm not saying anything that needs editing or afterthought. I'm just talking off the top of the head here, making up for a lack of words in the rest of my body.
Maybe when we're left alone with our brains, we just need to empty them out once in a while, to make sure they don't get too full, and we wind up forgetting the more important things in our lives. I think I've done that sometimes. If that's the case, I can totally understand this thing. I think I've had too much going on in there, the last couple of days. I'm surprised when I learn new things, I don't forget very basic things. I sort of want to read a book one day and then forget how to brush my teeth. I think that would explain a ton about humanity, in general, and perspectives, in specific.
I can never understand people getting stressed out. I get "stressed" in a weird way if I'm physically late for something, or under a deadline. That, to me, is something to get "stressed" about, and I'm loosely quoting it to ensure you understand 'stress' to be a relative term. I've had enough reason to think about people and stress in the last little while, and I'm still wondering what possible benefit it could have to the body. I understand that, when stressed, I get more productive, so I don't mind getting stressed in an academic-workload situation, that to me makes sense. But like... in a relationship? In a conversation? In a casual setting? I just don't get it. I think it has something to do with the whole full-brain thing, and perspectives.
I think once people get their heads all full, they hard-wire some things in there to make them easier to remember, and to not take up their space just kicking around in there. Then other people come along with different perspectives and understandings of similar issues, just as firmly hardwired. Then they wind up trying to rationalize very different things to one another in a ham-fisted attempt at communication. Then they get stressed. Then they fight.
Then these people wind up running the world.
I think that might be why I like how B-rock Obama answers questions. He doesn't have quick answers. He kinda thinks about everything he's gonna say. I like to think to myself that he doesn't have a hardwired brain, and he can just take situations and people and ideas and judge them on their merits. He comes across so thoughtful and understanding. I'd like to be more like that.
I've got work to do.
I think I'm hardwired in my own ways, and maybe I just keep 'stress' under the surface, and pretend it doesn't exist. Maybe that's how I cope. Maybe I cope better... or much worse. I guess it's like 'Serenity Now': I won't know until I smash a bunch of computers.
Regardless, I've rambled. And kind of answered my earlier questions about this place. It's a good brain dump. I might wind up making a routine of this. My head feels lighter.
It's almost like a reality television show, dontchathink?
There seems to be this neat little fascination with making private things public all of a sudden. As soon as people have secrets, another group of people want to see them, or read about them, or listen to them. Worse still, there's another group of people who just give it away for free, putting details of their personal and private lives on a place like the internet. Catharsis? I dunno, really. I'm trying to understand it too. But then again, I don't really watch a ton of 'reality TV', or at least the shows that follow around celebrities in their everyday minutia.
But even then, they're -celebrities-. Their lives are fantastic even in their most mundane.
But you and I, on the other hand, aren't fabulous in the least. We're just people. People aren't very fabulous. They just sort of 'are', and that's cool, but it's nothing to write home about. Literally.
Yet there I go, writing whole paragraphs and then editing myself because I didn't like how it sounded or came across. Who am I trying to impress? I'm not saying anything that needs editing or afterthought. I'm just talking off the top of the head here, making up for a lack of words in the rest of my body.
Maybe when we're left alone with our brains, we just need to empty them out once in a while, to make sure they don't get too full, and we wind up forgetting the more important things in our lives. I think I've done that sometimes. If that's the case, I can totally understand this thing. I think I've had too much going on in there, the last couple of days. I'm surprised when I learn new things, I don't forget very basic things. I sort of want to read a book one day and then forget how to brush my teeth. I think that would explain a ton about humanity, in general, and perspectives, in specific.
I can never understand people getting stressed out. I get "stressed" in a weird way if I'm physically late for something, or under a deadline. That, to me, is something to get "stressed" about, and I'm loosely quoting it to ensure you understand 'stress' to be a relative term. I've had enough reason to think about people and stress in the last little while, and I'm still wondering what possible benefit it could have to the body. I understand that, when stressed, I get more productive, so I don't mind getting stressed in an academic-workload situation, that to me makes sense. But like... in a relationship? In a conversation? In a casual setting? I just don't get it. I think it has something to do with the whole full-brain thing, and perspectives.
I think once people get their heads all full, they hard-wire some things in there to make them easier to remember, and to not take up their space just kicking around in there. Then other people come along with different perspectives and understandings of similar issues, just as firmly hardwired. Then they wind up trying to rationalize very different things to one another in a ham-fisted attempt at communication. Then they get stressed. Then they fight.
Then these people wind up running the world.
I think that might be why I like how B-rock Obama answers questions. He doesn't have quick answers. He kinda thinks about everything he's gonna say. I like to think to myself that he doesn't have a hardwired brain, and he can just take situations and people and ideas and judge them on their merits. He comes across so thoughtful and understanding. I'd like to be more like that.
I've got work to do.
I think I'm hardwired in my own ways, and maybe I just keep 'stress' under the surface, and pretend it doesn't exist. Maybe that's how I cope. Maybe I cope better... or much worse. I guess it's like 'Serenity Now': I won't know until I smash a bunch of computers.
Regardless, I've rambled. And kind of answered my earlier questions about this place. It's a good brain dump. I might wind up making a routine of this. My head feels lighter.