You set my heart on fire.

[spoonerist]

So! I have spent the last couple of days switching backwards and forwards from apathetic torpors to states of catatonia. In one of the transitory periods from one state to another, I somehow managed to (hand)write four pages of notes for my political science essay. Strange. But what makes this even stranger is that I did so in about ten minutes (

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[spoonerist]

Pointless Waste of Time also have a caption contest - or, rather, a 'craption contest'. It is sometimes good for a laugh.

I knew what I wrote about my notes and essay would be construed that way. I couldn't be bothered writing anymore than what is up there, so I stopped.

I don't think my unwillingness to write essays and do my assignments is awesome, or that having all of the materials needed to write a reasonably intelligent essay and then not writing one is awesome. It isn't. I certainly wasn't trying to act like I'm a super cool rebel who doesn't care about rules or whatever.

I know I'm stupid. And lazy. I know I'll regret it in the future. It's especially idiotic since I'm at university - a place where I was not coerced into studying and which is going to cost a fuckload of money.

But I know all of this and accept the consequences. I don't ask for extensions or anything else like that. I get the marks I deserve. Sometimes I even get marks I don't deserve. I don't pretend or act like I'm above the 'system' - if anything, I wish that I could just study all of the time, do all of the work and try hard.

Anyway, the point of all this is to say that I'm a whining bitch who knows he's pathetic. Sad face.

[linkadu]

It can be hard to focus when you first get into university. Classes are structured differently, teachers mostly don't care about you, and you're expected tos tructure your own time. That's hard for a lot of people. It's certainly difficult for me. I couldn't hack school during my first go-around. And I wasn't even sure what I wanted to do, and so half the time I was doing my work, the other half was figuring out if the class I had just taken was really worth $3,000 if I wasn't really that excited about rat psychology or whatever, and then the OTHER half of my time was spent worrying about what I was going to do after I graduated, because all my courses seemed to suck, and none of it was related to anything like a job.

In short, you don't suck. Well, maybe you do. But maybe your brain is busy trying to work out some other problems, so you're not really available to focus on international law, wttf that is.

[spoonerist]

Aww, don't let me off that easily!

I'm a third year university student. So, a lot of what you wrote wouldn't apply to me. I'm not overwhelmed with the differences between high school and university, nor am I still drunk from graduation parties. I actually like and prefer the structure and style of university - except the people. Oh, god, the people. People everywhere. I'm normally a bitter and surly misanthrope, and university amplifies this by a factor of infinity.

I'm not worried about what kinds of jobs are possible from someone with my degrees. I suspect that somebody with a skill set comprising law, political science and a language could get some kind of job utilising most or all of these skills. However, I am worried if I can get a job which I like and find satisfying. I don't want to get some corporate job just to make heaps of money - it seems that that's only what law students want.

I'm not entirely sure why I'm being so obstinate with my assessment this semester. Usually I complain a lot, berate myself for leaving it until the last minute and then suck it up and do it. I suspect this may have something to do with growing up - my not want to do so. It's strange and kind of ridiculous, but myself and my friends really, really don't want to grow up. We have panic attacks and moments of dread just thinking about turning twenty this year and thus no longer being a 'teen'.