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I woke up this morning to a very loud "FUCK!!!" that Jarrod yelled, incidentally in my ear. He was supposed to wake up at 8 to go to work and the clock read 9:25. Then Bob showed up, like he has been doing every morning for the past week or so. At least he's progressively showing up later, the first time he came at 7 in the morning on Jarrod's day to sleep in. Anyway, he brought Angus with him and Jarrod and I are looking after him for a few days. Angus is Bob's HUGE tomcat, he's pretty chill though. Just sits with you all day, desperate for attention. His real name is Little Prince but that's lame, so I call him Angus when Bob's not around.
Anyway, while Jarrod ran frantically around trying to find a clean sock to wear, I packed a bowl, we smoked, then headed out the door at 9:50. I decided to go with them just so I could get some fresh air. Bob and I came pack to Gary (Jarrod's grumbling asswipe of a stepdad) throwing stuff from the spare room into me and jarrod's room. The room was TRASHED. He basically tossed the cat foot and water bowls on the floor, piled 54645 pounds of dirty clothes onto the bed and on the floor. Okay, yeah, they didn't exactly know a cat was staying in there in the first place BUT thats not the point.
So Bob and I sat there looking at each other and we just started cleaning like MAD.
We actually vacuumed, too! The floor is really, really clean.
Then my Dad picked me up, he took me to Wal-Mart and bought me shampoo, conditioner, and q-tips. He also gave me 15 bucks!
Get this, my parents offered me a CAR, a MINIATURE CHIHUAHUA, and an APPLE LAPTOP to come home. They said that next year I could move to Toronto and start going to school and they would send me money every month. Last night I had the first doubts ever about me and Jarrod's relationship. Or maybe at least me and Jarrod living together. I could be making a lot of money right now and living an easy life. Not that right now things are hard really. The only aspect that I'm worried about is my job situation, which just improved tenfold since Jarrod's Mum(who works at corporate DMV) managed to get the scans of my green card that they took when I got my license! So that's cool.
It's weird how different things would be if I wasn't with Jarrod. At times I find myself wanting to go back...but I've always said that love comes first with me. And I really do love Jarrod. I've always wanted what Jarrod and I have, ever since I was a little girl. I had it once before with Jeff, but since he died I've been searching for it ever since. I've waited and waited.
I don't know...I need to think about it some more. I really want to stay with Jarrod though, he makes me happy and I'm young and I need to enjoy this while I still can before I get too old.
Anyway, while Jarrod ran frantically around trying to find a clean sock to wear, I packed a bowl, we smoked, then headed out the door at 9:50. I decided to go with them just so I could get some fresh air. Bob and I came pack to Gary (Jarrod's grumbling asswipe of a stepdad) throwing stuff from the spare room into me and jarrod's room. The room was TRASHED. He basically tossed the cat foot and water bowls on the floor, piled 54645 pounds of dirty clothes onto the bed and on the floor. Okay, yeah, they didn't exactly know a cat was staying in there in the first place BUT thats not the point.
So Bob and I sat there looking at each other and we just started cleaning like MAD.
We actually vacuumed, too! The floor is really, really clean.
Then my Dad picked me up, he took me to Wal-Mart and bought me shampoo, conditioner, and q-tips. He also gave me 15 bucks!
Get this, my parents offered me a CAR, a MINIATURE CHIHUAHUA, and an APPLE LAPTOP to come home. They said that next year I could move to Toronto and start going to school and they would send me money every month. Last night I had the first doubts ever about me and Jarrod's relationship. Or maybe at least me and Jarrod living together. I could be making a lot of money right now and living an easy life. Not that right now things are hard really. The only aspect that I'm worried about is my job situation, which just improved tenfold since Jarrod's Mum(who works at corporate DMV) managed to get the scans of my green card that they took when I got my license! So that's cool.
It's weird how different things would be if I wasn't with Jarrod. At times I find myself wanting to go back...but I've always said that love comes first with me. And I really do love Jarrod. I've always wanted what Jarrod and I have, ever since I was a little girl. I had it once before with Jeff, but since he died I've been searching for it ever since. I've waited and waited.
I don't know...I need to think about it some more. I really want to stay with Jarrod though, he makes me happy and I'm young and I need to enjoy this while I still can before I get too old.