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hey kids,
well lets see i can't remeber what i last updated so i'll start at oct 22 or 23 well on which ever night it was i went to a friends party totaly last minute right well eric got mad and i discovered i cant be around this one person ever bc its like nothing ever went wrong ,well that i went wrong (i didnt cheat on him thats not my thing) ive always regreated what i did and he'll never know that or even care, when we're together its like we still go out even though we dont and both have a significant other since that night he and i havent talked and its killing me that night a lot of my thoughts on many things changed not just bc of him but that night marked something in this small brain of mine to change ..... that week was hell i foght with eric non stop but im still with him bc that weekend on the 30 we went to andys part it was a ton of fun but ive had this odd feeling about eric lately that i cant discribe like i donno theres something wrong with us i know it i just cant put my finger on it but he did apoligize for everything especially "negelecting me" ever since that night we as a couple have been doing better but theres still somehting that isnt right and its bugging the hell out of me well then tuesday two people told me they heard he was cheating on me well i got to the bottom of that and alex's idea of cheating is really off he thinks if eric is walking with another girl or has other friends that are girls hes cheating on me so we got that cleared up but i stil wish i could figure out what to do because even though eveything is bettre a part of me finds my self not wanting to be with him at all well on halloween i went to jess's house with jackie and emily and jimmy where there i had tons fun and i busted my ass taking a bush sign down out of someones yard lol it was great then i found one of those pizza hut oven bags that keeps the pizza hot its sooo cool ahhahahaha you only wish you had one then on wednesday i stayed home went to school thrusday and had our bible club meeting thing i'm not sure what to call it but yea and that was awesome we're now going to meet on mondays,(thrusdays or wednesday) and fridays i think... our school really needs God in the worst ways which is sad well latley ive found my self not caring about a lot of things and being extreamly shy and people have noticed which im not sure if thats good or not but yea i havent been wanting to be all giddy, loud or hyper like i usally do i dotn know whats going on i feel just blah and dont want to really deal with the world in general im jsut so blah and ive realized my firneds have changed like the sure i almost always have someone to talk to but i dont hang out with anyone really outside of school except jackie and every now and then clarissa or timmy but other than that there isnt really anyone next year is going to be so different with out jackie here im going to have to make new friends and like i donno i dont exactly fit in with anyone in any particular group which i dont want to because i dotn like the whole "grouping" thing that school does to you but whatever im going to quit ranting now so laterz
well lets see i can't remeber what i last updated so i'll start at oct 22 or 23 well on which ever night it was i went to a friends party totaly last minute right well eric got mad and i discovered i cant be around this one person ever bc its like nothing ever went wrong ,well that i went wrong (i didnt cheat on him thats not my thing) ive always regreated what i did and he'll never know that or even care, when we're together its like we still go out even though we dont and both have a significant other since that night he and i havent talked and its killing me that night a lot of my thoughts on many things changed not just bc of him but that night marked something in this small brain of mine to change ..... that week was hell i foght with eric non stop but im still with him bc that weekend on the 30 we went to andys part it was a ton of fun but ive had this odd feeling about eric lately that i cant discribe like i donno theres something wrong with us i know it i just cant put my finger on it but he did apoligize for everything especially "negelecting me" ever since that night we as a couple have been doing better but theres still somehting that isnt right and its bugging the hell out of me well then tuesday two people told me they heard he was cheating on me well i got to the bottom of that and alex's idea of cheating is really off he thinks if eric is walking with another girl or has other friends that are girls hes cheating on me so we got that cleared up but i stil wish i could figure out what to do because even though eveything is bettre a part of me finds my self not wanting to be with him at all well on halloween i went to jess's house with jackie and emily and jimmy where there i had tons fun and i busted my ass taking a bush sign down out of someones yard lol it was great then i found one of those pizza hut oven bags that keeps the pizza hot its sooo cool ahhahahaha you only wish you had one then on wednesday i stayed home went to school thrusday and had our bible club meeting thing i'm not sure what to call it but yea and that was awesome we're now going to meet on mondays,(thrusdays or wednesday) and fridays i think... our school really needs God in the worst ways which is sad well latley ive found my self not caring about a lot of things and being extreamly shy and people have noticed which im not sure if thats good or not but yea i havent been wanting to be all giddy, loud or hyper like i usally do i dotn know whats going on i feel just blah and dont want to really deal with the world in general im jsut so blah and ive realized my firneds have changed like the sure i almost always have someone to talk to but i dont hang out with anyone really outside of school except jackie and every now and then clarissa or timmy but other than that there isnt really anyone next year is going to be so different with out jackie here im going to have to make new friends and like i donno i dont exactly fit in with anyone in any particular group which i dont want to because i dotn like the whole "grouping" thing that school does to you but whatever im going to quit ranting now so laterz