Im slowly getting there,,,,,
I dont want to be there. I dont want to fall in love again. I dont want to be without Tim. But i Dont want to love him and I catch myself getting closer to that part of me and my heart that is telling me to back away quickly and not look back, but I dont want that. I want to be with him. I want all of this great happiness without me loving him, but It is no use, Im finding myself doing that. I hate it. I dont wanna be in love again. I dont wanna go through the hurt I did with Ryan. I cant let it happen....But I miss him. I miss him after only being away from him 30 mins. I long for him right now. His smell, his touch, his way of making me smile.... GRRRR this sucks.....