Sep 05, 2005 00:32
Ahoy there fuck head.
Anyways Skool started. My schedule? 3 histories, double earth science, one math, lunch and everyday gym. 2nd period to 9th. hoo..ray.
Its not all that bad i guess really, its just that that whole regents thing bothers me... They make regents test to prove what? That I am accomplished in the subject matter at hand, right? But if i never went to English, U.S. History, or math and i took the regents anyway and passed with good marks, Then why do i have to go to the class for the teachers to Teach something I already know. That bites.....fucking Skool system, hypocritical bullshit. They can say whatever, but in the end thats how it is on the table. I know the shit, i proved it, and they still want futility...dumb asses.
My cavity is a fucking valley of decaying ouchness. I get to get work done on it on thursday. Six weeks was pretty long to wait for an approval from insurance. I can feel the hole with my tongue.
Danny wants to go to a tech. skool but doesnt know if he can transfer out of BCC cus of financial aid or something. Is it possible to go to a different skool if you have financial aid and were registered in a skool already. This is important... I would think so, but if anyone knows the real deal let me know that one.
My hair is pink and I love it.
I had a new nose pin with a pink jewel, and that one came out too. mini nose rings suck wee wee. Christmas is coming in like 3 months, u can get me a nose pin or two if u like. its only a dollar or two depending. im a cheap buy. I dont like people to spend money on me because they think they have to anyway, i dont like that. I like pure actions.
Im gonna pierce my nail tip of my ring fingers with a hot needle and put little loops through. I thought about that today, i liked the idea. Dont steal it...everyone will know!
fuck it, do you if you prefer bein posie. but if your posie at natural then your not posie at all......your just a loser :)
I like pink against black...im not prissy, but pink is hardcore to me.... i dunno, it gives off that apeal in my eyes for some reason or another. Pink is like......the sun exploding fire and shooting hunks of sparkling tragedy coming your way....sparkling tradjedy...that is nice.
I worry about my mother...she is a good hearted person...she has no husband cus he was an abusive drunk fuck head bastard to her.... She used to have a good job until some stupid asshole started to be a pervert towards her and sexual harrasment and all that. She got another job and people didnt like her because she wasnt like them, she wasnt dirty, promiscuous, vulgar or shady. She was simple, passive, and kept to herself. a guy liked her and his prostitutie/girlfriend-type-thing was jelouse of my mom who had no interest in him. She had to leave her job. She now makes little money in a job that she was happy in at first, until my grandparents started to put her down saying that she had a bullshit job and it was garbage. She has 3 kids and no husband, She went to college for art and fashion design and the skool lost all of her portfolio work and some records, She took nursing courses and now does not have the money to get re-certified and pay for "brush up courses", when she was in labor they left a needle sticking into her spinal cord, now she has pain in her back everyday for her whole life and its 18 years too late to sue for mal-practice but she still will give her last 5 dollars for lunch to my sister to buy something she wants. She's doing the best she can...i wish people would shut the fuck up and leave my mother alone, she's better than so many people ive met, and people step all over her and treat her like shit. I hate those people. I know ive said things about my mom, and how she can be fucked up to me and shit....but maybe i just never thought about all those things on top of one another all at once while she was complaining or anything. Im sorry...sometimes i forget..but i love my mother. and mind you, thats just the tip of the ice berg. It breaks my heart. I wish someone goodhearted and pure would come into my moms life so that she can know she's capable of being loved. sigh...I love my mommy.
People are so fucking evil.....they are so evil.
So corrupted...
I digress to adress that her lifes been quite a mess
I agree to decree that some life is deep in she
God keep her safe and give your grace upon my mothers face
Bye