"You're gonna die, we're all gonna die, Could be twenty years, could be tonight ."
A few things as of late.
In terms of weighty topics, I've been trying to cope with Jacob's death just like everyone else. I've decided that I'm really going to give Nick some stuff to work with (like I've been promising forever) so that he can finish the comic that him and Jacob started. It's called Fortune Favors the Brave and he wants to present at Novi Comicon in the fall. I've always wanted to do a comic with Nick too, so it will be fulfilling on more than one level.
I've been thinking about death all the time lately, I'm not sure if it is natural or not. It's weird when you float along and know in the back of your mind that you could die at any time, but something like this happens, and it's like BAM! You better come to terms with your life and what it means to you NOW because it could literally end at any moment. Those are tough things to deal with.
In a way, it's brought me back towards my faith in some ways. There are days where I just totally can't believe in God, and don't feel anything at all. But mostly, I've had some intangible feelings that something is telling me to nurture. I think that getting back into a church and really communing with God through the Bible and other Christian writers would help. If you surround yourself with secular, worldly, and dead things, that's what you'll become. So I'm trying to really focus on what God wants me to do, but it's really hard in this cacophonous symphony of Big City Life. This whole ordeal has also really made me take a long, hard look at what I believe and why. I believe that Christianity is right with my brain, I just need to establish that personal connection with Jesus.
Enough heady subjects, I just had to get some things off my chest. I'm devoting a separate entry to the fun of the holidays, which will be entirely more uplifting, I promise.
In terms of weighty topics, I've been trying to cope with Jacob's death just like everyone else. I've decided that I'm really going to give Nick some stuff to work with (like I've been promising forever) so that he can finish the comic that him and Jacob started. It's called Fortune Favors the Brave and he wants to present at Novi Comicon in the fall. I've always wanted to do a comic with Nick too, so it will be fulfilling on more than one level.
I've been thinking about death all the time lately, I'm not sure if it is natural or not. It's weird when you float along and know in the back of your mind that you could die at any time, but something like this happens, and it's like BAM! You better come to terms with your life and what it means to you NOW because it could literally end at any moment. Those are tough things to deal with.
In a way, it's brought me back towards my faith in some ways. There are days where I just totally can't believe in God, and don't feel anything at all. But mostly, I've had some intangible feelings that something is telling me to nurture. I think that getting back into a church and really communing with God through the Bible and other Christian writers would help. If you surround yourself with secular, worldly, and dead things, that's what you'll become. So I'm trying to really focus on what God wants me to do, but it's really hard in this cacophonous symphony of Big City Life. This whole ordeal has also really made me take a long, hard look at what I believe and why. I believe that Christianity is right with my brain, I just need to establish that personal connection with Jesus.
Enough heady subjects, I just had to get some things off my chest. I'm devoting a separate entry to the fun of the holidays, which will be entirely more uplifting, I promise.