3 specific hurt!Dean fics and general search
Hi! I read these ages ago and can't for the life of me find them again.
1. For some reason, teen!Dean actually takes a couple of driving lessons instead of using a fake license. They show the kids pictures of burned-out cars (and dead bodies?) and Dean kind of breaks down. John finds him crying on the sidewalk, I think.
2. Dean is high on pain killers or cough medicine or something. Sam has to babysit, which is fun at first, but then Dean wanders off and Sam has to find him and bring him back to the motel room. He says something along the lines of "I thought you'd left." and Dean just kind of shrugs and goes "yeah, people leaving sucks, huh?". I'm almost sure this one is an old hoodietime fill.
3. This one I barely remember at all. I know it was set in S1/2 and ends with Dean crying/trying not to cry after revealing something I can't quite remember to Sam and then rejecting Sam's attempts to comfort him. Sam kind of remembers how when they were kids Dean would never accept any kind of help but was always there when Sam needed comforting, so he pretends to be very upset by what Dean just told him, so he will let him hug him. I'm fairly sure it was on ff.net. Might have been one of the 'what if Sam and Dean had had Max's childhood?' fics, but I could be mixing something up there.
And while I'm at it, I know this is super vague, but I'd love any and all recs for sad Dean fics. Not the drowning-in-angst kind and not really depressed!Dean, just... sad fics. Fics that make you sad for Dean and his life, instead of Dean being sad, or even realizing how not-good everything is, if that makes sense. I'd prefer pre-series to S5, but I'm happy to give anything a try.
1. For some reason, teen!Dean actually takes a couple of driving lessons instead of using a fake license. They show the kids pictures of burned-out cars (and dead bodies?) and Dean kind of breaks down. John finds him crying on the sidewalk, I think.
2. Dean is high on pain killers or cough medicine or something. Sam has to babysit, which is fun at first, but then Dean wanders off and Sam has to find him and bring him back to the motel room. He says something along the lines of "I thought you'd left." and Dean just kind of shrugs and goes "yeah, people leaving sucks, huh?". I'm almost sure this one is an old hoodietime fill.
3. This one I barely remember at all. I know it was set in S1/2 and ends with Dean crying/trying not to cry after revealing something I can't quite remember to Sam and then rejecting Sam's attempts to comfort him. Sam kind of remembers how when they were kids Dean would never accept any kind of help but was always there when Sam needed comforting, so he pretends to be very upset by what Dean just told him, so he will let him hug him. I'm fairly sure it was on ff.net. Might have been one of the 'what if Sam and Dean had had Max's childhood?' fics, but I could be mixing something up there.
And while I'm at it, I know this is super vague, but I'd love any and all recs for sad Dean fics. Not the drowning-in-angst kind and not really depressed!Dean, just... sad fics. Fics that make you sad for Dean and his life, instead of Dean being sad, or even realizing how not-good everything is, if that makes sense. I'd prefer pre-series to S5, but I'm happy to give anything a try.