OW MY HEAD
I AM NEVER GETTING DRUNK AGAIN. BECAUSE I ALWAYS END UP REALLY REGRETTING IT. I'M THE FIRST TO ADMIT THAT IT HAPPENED BECAUSE I WAS SAD AND LONELY AND JUST...UPSET AT MYSELF AND AT...
UPSET THAT DEAN HAD LEFT ME TO SAY FUCKING YES TO MICHAEL EVEN IF I NEED HIM AND I DON'T THINK HE UNDERSTANDS HOW MUCH HE MAKES ME HAPPY AND HOW MUCH I MISSED HIM. AND THEN THERE WAS THE WHOLE THING WHERE I BROKE UP WITH JESS AND I KNEW IT WAS THE RIGHT THING BUT I WAS STILL JUST SO UPSET WITH MY SELF BECAUSE DAMN IT I LOVE HER. I LOVE HER SO MUCH, BUT I KNOW I HAVE TO WAIT TO BE WITH HER UNTIL AFTER WE DEFEAT LUCIFER BECAUSE THEN WE CAN LIVE OUT OUR LIVES IN PEACE AND THAT'S ALL I WANT FOR US, IS TO LIVE TOGETHER IN PEACE AFTER LUCIFER LEAVES.
I DON'T REALLY REMEMBER ANYTHING AFTER THE THIRD GLASS... DID I DO ANYTHING STUPID? CHANCES ARE I DIDN'T MEAN IT. I DO STUPID THINGS WHEN DRUNK: LIKE SLEEP WITH RUBY UGH.
FINALLY DEAN HERE IS YOUR SOUL BACK:
THAT'S WHAT THE THREE RINGS FUSED INTO ONCE I GOT ALL OF THEM, BUT THAT'S IT. IT'S A LITTLE BROKEN, AND HAS CRACKS INSIDE THE JEWEL BUT IT'S THERE AND IT'S WHOLE.
UPSET THAT DEAN HAD LEFT ME TO SAY FUCKING YES TO MICHAEL EVEN IF I NEED HIM AND I DON'T THINK HE UNDERSTANDS HOW MUCH HE MAKES ME HAPPY AND HOW MUCH I MISSED HIM. AND THEN THERE WAS THE WHOLE THING WHERE I BROKE UP WITH JESS AND I KNEW IT WAS THE RIGHT THING BUT I WAS STILL JUST SO UPSET WITH MY SELF BECAUSE DAMN IT I LOVE HER. I LOVE HER SO MUCH, BUT I KNOW I HAVE TO WAIT TO BE WITH HER UNTIL AFTER WE DEFEAT LUCIFER BECAUSE THEN WE CAN LIVE OUT OUR LIVES IN PEACE AND THAT'S ALL I WANT FOR US, IS TO LIVE TOGETHER IN PEACE AFTER LUCIFER LEAVES.
I DON'T REALLY REMEMBER ANYTHING AFTER THE THIRD GLASS... DID I DO ANYTHING STUPID? CHANCES ARE I DIDN'T MEAN IT. I DO STUPID THINGS WHEN DRUNK: LIKE SLEEP WITH RUBY UGH.
FINALLY DEAN HERE IS YOUR SOUL BACK:
THAT'S WHAT THE THREE RINGS FUSED INTO ONCE I GOT ALL OF THEM, BUT THAT'S IT. IT'S A LITTLE BROKEN, AND HAS CRACKS INSIDE THE JEWEL BUT IT'S THERE AND IT'S WHOLE.