Their First Time (5/6)
Title: Their First Time.
Categories: Dean/Sam > Overall Series.
Characters: Dean, Sam, Other.
Rated: NC-17.
Genres: Angst, Drama, Established Relationship, First Time, Hurt & Comfort, Romance.
Warnings: Abuse, Rape/ Non-con.
Beta'd by: deansgirl84
Series: None.
Chapters: 6.
Completed: Yes.
Word count: 10850.
Summary: One night after their regular hunt, Sam accidentally witnesses his brother, Dean, releaving himself, but one thing he cannot understand that his brother said his name while getting off. Will Sam be able to forget it or will the thing that Dean did lead them to a new kind of relationship between the brothers?
Chapter 5 - Forgiveness and Confession
Dean sits on the edge of Sam’s bed and checks his brother’s wounds. There are so many bruises on Sam’s face and body. He feels so guilty he wasn’t there when Sam needed him. When he takes care of Sam’s wounds, he can’t hold his emotions in anymore, tears rolling from his green eyes. His heart is broken.
“I’m so sorry Sam. I should have never left you; I should have been there when you needed me. I should have never let those bastards hurt you like this… What kind of brother am I?! I can’t protect you Sammy; I have failed in my promise to Mom and Dad…”
Sam wakes from his brother’s sobs. He never sees Dean cries like that, so weak and so emotional. Is it because of him? Are those tears intended for him? Sam feels his heart sink. He raises his hand to wipe those tears away. “Dean…”
Dean wipes his tears quickly as he acknowledges that Sam is awake.
“Hi there tiger, feelin’ better?” he asks, pretending that he had not been crying.
Sam smiles, but his lips hurt. They’re bruised too.
“Dean, get to sleep man, you look tired…”
Dean shakes his head; he tries to smile, but Sam realizes that Dean doesn’t dare look into his eyes. He can read Dean’s look. He can feel Dean’s sadness. Sam pulls himself up and tries to sit.
“No, what are you doing Sam? Just lay down, you need to rest!”
Sam caresses Dean’s cheek; he takes his brother by surprise.
“Sam?”
“You look thin man, why? Weren’t you eating enough when you left?”
Dean throws his gaze to the floor, he remembers that day; especially when Sam said he hurt him.
“I… I can’t, Sam…”
Sam raises Dean’s face with his hands and makes Dean look him in the eyes.
“Look Dean, about that day, I… I just want you to know that I forgive you.”
Dean can’t believe what he just heard. He grabs Sam’s hands and forces him to let his face go. Again, he throws his gaze to another place.
“No, Sam, you were right, I hurt you. You should never forgive me, man…”
Sam pulls Dean’s shoulders to turn his brother’s body, to face him again.
“Cut it out now, Dean, would you?” Sam forces him.
But instead of facing him, Dean falls into his lap.
They stare at each other for a moment. Look at each other’s faces, eyes and slowly down to each other’s lips. Their hearts start to race. When Dean tries to get up, Sam pushes him into his lap again.
“Sa…”
Dean cannot finish what he was about say, because Sam bends over to kiss him. It’s just a light kiss, but it has a great effect to both of them. It awakes the passion between the brothers, from deep inside their hearts.
“Sam?” Dean tries to get an explanation for the kiss he just had from him.
“Dean, I… I mean what I’m trying to say is, that day you shocked me and I thought you were hurting me. But after you left, I realized that… that…”
Sam feels that it’s hard to explain his point. He starts to get sweaty. Dean looks at him confusedly and then he finally understands what Sam is trying to say to him. Because his little brother just kissed him.
“That you liked it, didn’t you?” Dean grins.
Sam blushes as he nods. Dean feels so relieved to see Sam’s confession. Then he starts to laughs.
“Hey, what’s so funny, Mr. Pervert?” Sam protests.
“Nothing, I’m just glad that you liked it…”
“Don’t tease me, Dean!”
Dean glares at him with such lust that it makes Sam shiver. He gets up and slowly pushes Sam to lie down.
“Dean…” Sam’s voice trembles as Dean crawls on top of him.
Dean smiles at Sam to make his fear go away.
“Don’t worry Sammy, I promise I won’t hurt you. I will make you not just like it, but also enjoy it…”
He touches Sam face carefully and kisses him. Sam gives in to his own feelings and admits that he likes Dean’s kisses. He kisses Dean as passionately as Dean kisses him. Dean moans when Sam’s tongue caresses his. He wants to kiss Sam as hard as he can, but he’s afraid of hurting him, because Sam’s lips have been bruised. Sam’s hand starts to caress Dean’s face. He nibbles Dean’s lower lip and sucks it hard, but then he screams.
“What is it Sam?” Dean starts to panic, afraid that he did something that hurt Sam.
“My lips hurt!” he grumbles.
Dean’s guilty feeling is back. He gets off Sam, but Sam catches his arm, “Dean, where are you going?”
Dean looks at him with sad eyes, “You should get some rest, Sam.”
Sam’s eyes widened, “No, I’m sorry, Dean, I’m not blaming you, dude! My lips hurt because of my own fault; I sucked your lips too hard! I like your lips, man, they taste so sweet and kissing them is just not enough for me, I need more; so, I sucked them…” he smiles shyly.
Dean shakes his head, “Nah, you have to sleep now, Sam. Get some rest!” he gives Sam an order, the tough one.
“Bossy!” Sam growls. “I can’t, Dean!” he whines.
Dean looks at him, questioning, “Why? Just close your eyes and try to sleep.”
Sam exhales, “Dean.”
“Yeah?” Dean starts feel impatient.
Sam looks him in the eyes, “Tell me, could you sleep while you’re horny for me?”
For a brief moment the room gets quiet. This time Sam is the one who grins widely because he succeeds in making Dean speechless.
“What kind of question is that Samuel Winchester? Of course I can!” Dean sounds sharp.
Sam chuckles at Dean’s answer, “Liar!”
“What? How can you say that?”
Sam pulls Dean onto the bed, makes his older brother lie on his back and then gets on top of him.
“I saw you, Dean. I saw you when you jerked your dick off!” he whispers to Dean’s ear in a deep voice that makes Dean shiver.
“You did? When?” Dean challenges him.
“The night after hunting, when we went back to the motel and I slept first…”
Sam runs his tongue over his brother’s neck.
“Oh yeah?” Dean starts to get turned on with Sam on top of his body and Sam keeps kissing Dean’s neck slowly. Sam whispers in his ear again.
“You moaned so loud that it woke me up and I saw you jerking off while saying Yeah, Sam… Sammy, there… Suck my dick… Yeah… Oh yes... Mmhhh...Aaahhhhh... Oh Sam, baby, I wanna cum… Need to cum… oww, fuuuck!!! Then you spurted on your belly…”
Dean blushes and Sam laughs.
“Then you kissed me, Dean, and you said, I love you, Sammy… I always did and I always will...”
Sam puts his head on Dean’s chest and listens to the older man’s heartbeats.
“Is it true, Dean?”
Dean hugs him and kisses his hair.
“Yes, it is Sammy, I always love you. Do… Do you?”
Sam places a kiss on Dean’s heart, “Yes, I do. I love you too, Dean…”
Dean pulls Sam’s face to meet his lips. They kiss once again, slowly at first but then more passionately as the need to taste each other’s mouths once more grows. Their tongues slip into each other’s mouth and wrap around one another. Sam crawls up from Dean’s chest and holds Dean’s face in his hand. They can’t help it; the kiss is getting hotter and hotter. Dean’s hand is now caressing Sam’s back. Kissing, licking, nibbling, sucking and biting at each other’s mouths… until they can’t hold their breath anymore and they break the kiss, panting out their breaths.
“Take off your clothes, Dean, I wanna touch you…”
“Okay, but you too, take off your pants…”
They get up from the bed and start to strip. And when they finished, Dean stares at Sam’s naked body, his heart pounding hard in his chest. He walks toward Sam’s back and holds him. He whispers in Sam’s ear, in a deep husky voice, “You’re gorgeous, Sammy…”
Sam’s body starts to tremble as Dean starts to kiss his neck and lick it. Dean goes up to Sam’s ear and nibbles it. He licks Sam’s neck again and bites it a little, making Sam growl in pleasure. Dean’s bite left a mark there. His hand caresses Sam’s chest and plays with his nipple; rubs it with his thumb. Sam moans when Dean pinches it.
“You like that Sammy?” Dean whispers in his ear with a seductive rhythm.
“Oh yeah…” Sam answers out of breath.
Dean does it again, but this time he pinches both of Sam’s nipples, makes Sam moan louder. And Dean gets really turned on every time he hears his baby brother moan, especially because of him. His dick is getting harder in his boxers. And Sam can feel it on his ass as he rocks his hips back against Dean’s. Sam’s hand goes back to touch it, but Dean stops him.
“Dean…” Sam protests.
He chuckles, “Not yet, big boy… Not yet.”
Sam turns his body to face his older brother, “But I wanna touch you too, Dean…” he pulls Dean closer to his body and caresses Dean’s cheek.
“I know…” Dean answers Sam’s need and kisses him softly.
And once more the soft kiss turns into a hot and wild one until there’s no space left between their bodies, as they pull each other closer. Sam doesn’t care anymore about the pain that comes when he moves his lips too much. He really needs to taste Dean’s sweet lips and gets wet by Dean’s tongue. Dean tastes blood in their kiss, Sam’s blood from the bruises on his lips. Sam can feel his hard shaft pushing against Dean’s and so in return.
Fuck, it feels so freakin’ good .
Sam breathes heavily when Dean runs his hands over his ass, caresses and squeezes it gently. He keeps moaning and makes Dean really, really HORNY. Dean pushes Sam slowly to the bed. Sam lies on his back and Dean carefully sits on his stomach.
“Are you okay if I sit here, baby?” Dean asks in a worried tone.
Sam nods. Dean smiles, his beautiful green eyes sparkle with passion of the vision he sees in front of him; Sam’s naked body. He runs his hands on Sam’s flat stomach, tickling Sam a little, going up to his chest to rub Sam’s sensitive nipples. Oh, after so many years of waiting, he could finally touch his brother’s gorgeous body.
“Mmmhhh… aaahhhh… Deeaaan… moree…” Sam feels like his body is on fire every time his brother touches him.
Dean bends down and starts to lick Sam’s stomach, making Sam chuckle.
“Dean, it tickles, man!” Sam laughs.
Dean’s tongue makes its way up, follows the line of Sam’s stomach hair. And when he sees Sam’s hardened nipples he really feels seductive. Then without any second thought, he licks them. One at the time, gently, teasing them with his tongue, sending electric pleasure through his brother’s body and making Sam scream. Dean smiles in victory and keeps licking Sam’s nipples. Sam’s body starts to tremble underneath him. Sam runs his hands over Dean’s back, up and down. And without Dean noticing it, he slips them into Dean’s boxers and caresses Dean’s ass. Dean’s eyes widen when he feels Sam’s hands on his ass.
“Wow, what a soft ass, Dean! Like a baby; makes me wanna bite and spank it hard! May I, Dean?” Sam asks, offering him something naughty.
Dean shakes his head, “No, I’m not the bad one; it’s you, Sam. You’re the bad boy here. You’re the one who should be punished!” he lowers his lips again and sucks Sam’s nipple hard.
“Oooohhh God, Deeaaan!!!!” Sam digs his fingers deep into Dean’s ass cheeks when Dean took him by surprise.
Dean smirks while he’s moving slowly with a trail of kisses on Sam’s chest to get Sam’s other nipple. He sucks it hard, like a baby that’s thirsty for his mother’s milk. Sam bites his lower lip to prevent him from screaming out loud. Both of them breathe heavily. This is all too much, Sam says to himself. The way Dean pelts his body with so much pleasure, driving him mad, makes him sure that he can’t hold it any longer. Dean moves to Sam’s lower body. He kisses Sam’s legs and licks Sam’s inner thighs. Sam gasps when Dean grabs his cock. He starts and then sits on the edge of the bed. Sam’s position is giving Dean a better view. He stares passionately at Sam’s rock hard cock. Sam gulps.
“Well, hello there BIG boy…” Dean teases him.
Sam can feel Dean’s warm breath on his hard shaft and it makes him nervous.
Relax, Sam… he whispers to himself.
And as he tries to relax, Dean’s hands start to caress his long shaft. Dean jerks it slowly and then brings it to his mouth, tasting it. Sam begins to moan in a deep voice, hands grabbing the bed sheet tightly. Dean is jerking Sam with his mouth now. He sucks Sam’s dick in and out, softly. He can feel Sam’s cock on the back of his throat. Sam prays that this sweet torture will end soon because he can feel his cock is about to explode inside Dean’s warm and slick mouth.
“Dean…”
Dean opens his eyes, “Hmm?” he mumbles with a mouth full of Sam’s cock.
“I can’t hold it any longer… I wanna cum…”
Sam sounds desperate and almost over the edge, and Dean knows it. He keeps sucking Sam’s dick hard and makes his baby brother scream in pleasure when Sam finally cums long and hot inside Dean’s mouth. Sam’s body collapses to the bed when the orgasm hits him. He’s out of breath. Dean’s heart is full of satisfaction that he can make Sam cum. But he still has another surprise for Sam. Dean takes off his boxers. Then he places Sam’s cum on the palm of his hand and covers his fingers with it. He had no idea that this was going happen tonight, so he has no preparation at all. Especially, when there is no lube. Dean pushes his finger deep inside his hole. And after he gets used to it, he pushes another finger in. Sam comes back to reality when he hears Dean growl on the floor. He looks for him.
“Dean?”
And Sam finds Dean is thrusting his ass with his own fingers. He crawls down from the bed to the floor and sits by Dean’s side.
“Need some help?” Sam whispers in Dean’s ear.
Dean smiles at him, “Yeah, kiss me…”
Sam smiles in return and does what Dean asks him to. He starts to kiss his brother’s lips again while his hand crawls down to jerk Dean’s cock. Dean moans inside their kiss. Sam has no idea that Dean is preparing himself for him. Dean keeps thrusting and scissoring his ass until he feels it’s wide enough. He turns his body to face Sam. Once again Dean rolls and gets on top of his brother’s body. He grabs Sam cock and positions it against his entrance. Sam’s eyes widen.
“Dean, what the hell are you doi…”
Before he could finish his sentence, however, Dean already pushed his body down, hard and Sam’s dick is buried deep inside his brother’s body now. Sam’s shuts his eyes and screams in pleasure as he feels such tightness encircle his dick so suddenly. Meanwhile Dean hisses in pain.
“Dean…” Sam realizes the situation and feels guilty.
Dean tries to smile, but the pain is actually painted on his handsome face.
“It’s okay Sam… I’m okay…”
Sam shakes his head, “No, it’s not okay, Dean, you’re hurt! I’m hurting you! My dick is hurting your ass, man! And nothing is okay about that!”
Sam tries to get up, but Dean pushes him down again. Dean stares at him tenderly.
“It’s okay, Sam… Just give me some time, let me get used to you first. I promise I’ll be okay… I promise you’ll like it too…”
Sam gazes at Dean, “I don’t want you to get hurt just because you wanna make me like it, Dean…”
Dean smiles and pinches Sam’s nipple again then hungrily kisses him. He needs to hear Sam’s moans again. And he’s imagining Sam’s hard dick in his ass, going in and out, making him turned on again and he starts to ride his brother’s cock while his hand jerks his own cock. It still hurts the first time he moves because Sam’s cock isn’t just big, it’s huge . But Sam’s precum makes it a little easier to thrust, to slide his dick in and out Dean’s ass. Sam starts panting…
“Dean..?”
Dean shuts Sam up by placing his finger on Sam’s lips, “Shhh… Don’t talk, Sammy, just feel it!”
Sam does what Dean tells him to; he’s focusing his mind at his cock, “Ahhh, you’re so tight Dean…”
Sam takes Dean’s hand off his cock and replaces it with his hand, jerking Dean slowly. As Dean keeps on moving, Sam feels Dean’s ass squeeze his cock over and over, harder and harder and brings him once again near the edge. Sam’s mouth starts to mumble his name.
“Dean… aahhhh… nghhhhh… so tight… wanna cum… again…”
Dean moves faster when he feels Sam’s cock start to pulse inside his ass. And as he moves faster, he feels his brother’s long, thick cock stroking his prostate and the sensation drives him wild. Especially because his faster movement makes Sam’s cock shovel his prostate hard.
“Sam… Sammy… my baby… so fucking huge… mmmhhhhhhhhh…. unnggghhhhh…”
Sam’s hand starts jerking Dean’s cock faster as he feels he’s nearly over the edge.
“Deeeeeaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnn!!!!!!!!!” Sam screams his name as the orgasm wave hits him once more; he cums hard, and spurts his hot seed inside Dean’s ass. He pulls Dean’s head and kisses him. Dean moans inside Sam’s mouth and he cums not long after that, white and thick on Sam’s hand and stomach. They both breathe heavily, but keep on kissing.
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After the great excitement, they are now lying on the bed, cuddling. Sam’s resting his head on Dean’s chest and Dean kisses the top of his head.
“Dean?”
“Yeah, Sam?”
“Can I ask you something?”
“Sure, why not, babe.”
Sam wants to ask Dean about his sexual orientation, but then he’s afraid Dean will leave him again.
“Nah, I changed my mind…” Sam plants a kiss on Dean’s chest.
“Sam, what is it?”
“Nothing…”
“Just tell me, Sammy…” Dean insists.
Me and my stupid curiosity , Sam talks to himself.
“Sam? Come on, what is it? What do you wanna know from me? Come on, spill it!” Dean starts feeling impatient.
Sam crawls to meet Dean’s face, “Okay, I’ll tell you, but promise me one thing, Dean, would you?”
Dean raises Sam’s chin and brushes their lips together, “Anything for you, Sammy…”
“Promise me, you won’t leave me again, no matter what happens…” Sam begs.
Dean nods, he looks serious, “I promise, my love!” Dean swears inside his heart that he’ll never make the same mistake again; leave Sam and not be there when he needs him.
Sam smiles nervously, “Good then. Ng… Dean, what I wanna ask you is… why… why me, Dean? Why are you turning gay now?”
Dean blinks his eyes and gives a quick answer, “Does love need to have a reason?”
Sam gulps; so Dean’s reason is as simple as that... Love.
“But, since when, Dean?”
“Since you were born into this world, I always loved you, Sammy…”
“I know Dean, but what I mean is since when you wanna have… have…”
Dean chuckles, “Do you mean since when do I wanna have SEX with you?”
Sam nods, blushing.
“I don’t know for sure Sam, but deep inside my heart it feels so strong…”
Sam places his head on Dean’s chest again. He’s glad that Dean doesn’t get angry with him.
“And how about you, Sam?”
“What?”
“How about you and Jess?”
Dean kicked himself, mentally, as soon as those words left his mouth because suddenly Sam pulls himself from Dean and gives his back to his brother. Dean thought he hurt Sam again.
“I… I’m so sorry, Sam, I don’t mean to…”
“Never…”
Dean quirks his brow, he gets confused with Sam’s answer, “What Sam?”
Sam turns his body to face Dean, “I never had sex with Jess. You were my first time, Dean… It was my first time having SEX…” he blushes deeply and then hides his head under the pillow.
Dean shocked, “W-H-A-T?”
Sam pulls his head out, still blushing, “Me and Jess, we had a commitment, there was no SEX before MARRIAGE…”
“FUCK!” Dean curses.
“What?!” Sam snaps.
Dean holds Sam’s face, “Tell me, Sam, just be honest, man, do you regret it? Do you regret what we just did?”
Sam laughs, “No, Dean, of course not!”
“You sure? Why?” Dean gazes at him.
“Because I know that you love me. You love me more than life…”
“Oh, thank God! I thought you regret it, Sam… Because if you do, I can’t live with it; I’d rather die right here, right now…” He hugs Sam tightly.
Sam chuckles, “Nah, man…” he raises his face and kiss Dean.
“Sam?”
“Yeah, Dean?”
“I wanna be honest with you too, man, may I?”
“Sure!”
“It was my first time too… with a man.” Dean blushes.
The secret Dean just shared with him makes his jaw drop.
“So, we are even now, aren’t we…?”
“I can’t believe it Dean! You really did that for me?”
“You may think that I’m gay, Sam, but you’re the only man who I wanna make love to…”
“So, that wasn’t just sex, was it?”
“Of course not!”
“Well, thank you Mr. Playboy, if that wasn’t just one night stand that you usually do…”
“No, thanks to you, Sam, you don’t know how much you make me happy. I love you Sammy…”
“I love you too, Dean.”
Dean tugs Sam into his arms again, pulls up the blanket to cover their naked bodies and goes to sleep in peace. Knowing that they love each other, knowing that they have each other and knowing that they will never be apart again.
Chapter 6