Ch-ch-ch-changes.

[splash_the_cat]

I expect this recent spate of posting is going to come to a quick end. The first recruitment visit I have to manage is this week, and they run until mid-March with only a two week break, and after that it's administrative deadline hell until mid-May, and then we get to start breaking in a new department chair. To that end, I'm trimming the flist and comms back quite a bit, and am taking advantage of the lj subscription feature to follow some things and people to better manage my lj/fannish time.

I've also been spending a lot of time working on me. I've paradoxically felt better and worse in the last year than I have in the last five or so. The worse part is mostly frustration, as one of the reasons I'm feeling better is that I'm working hard at paying attention to and setting limits on what I do. But this taking care of myself shit is time and attention-consuming. I'm spreading out tasks and priorities and cutting things out to add other necessary things in and trying to get more sleep so that I'm on a much more even keel, rather than running full tilt until I hit a wall and then spend a week recovering only to start the cycle again.

I do feel good, but I'm also cranky and not a little depressed that I do have to pay such close attention to this shit to be a functional human being. Still, this beats the constant anxiety and crushing exhaustion and depression hands-down, so all in all I am at peace with the new regime.

Plus, the new regime means semi-regular massages. Such a hardship. Which I must remember to book for next weekend...