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I guess it's all over. It was short-lived, but I can't say that I expected much to come of it. I thought I'd be dead before meeting him. I do not feel as if it has benefited me at all. I don't feel better, I can't say that I walked away from this with at least more knowledge.
The things he did to appease me are all erased. Every notion of me is gone. I have held no real impact on his life. I only asked of him to care about what he says and realize who it all effects.
I suppose the hard life of drugs, hustlin', gangs and being lonely is too great to give up, even for a family that he "loved and always would".
Thanks for proving to me what I always thought true. Thanks for proving yourself to be a hypocrite. Thanks for dangling the carrot in front of me, and pulling it away abruptly. I don't need you. I have done just this fine without you or your money, and I will continue to be the person that I have always been.
You got mad at me for calling you Mark, instead of dad. This is why I called you Mark. Dad puts too much endearment into something that will never exist.
The things he did to appease me are all erased. Every notion of me is gone. I have held no real impact on his life. I only asked of him to care about what he says and realize who it all effects.
I suppose the hard life of drugs, hustlin', gangs and being lonely is too great to give up, even for a family that he "loved and always would".
Thanks for proving to me what I always thought true. Thanks for proving yourself to be a hypocrite. Thanks for dangling the carrot in front of me, and pulling it away abruptly. I don't need you. I have done just this fine without you or your money, and I will continue to be the person that I have always been.
You got mad at me for calling you Mark, instead of dad. This is why I called you Mark. Dad puts too much endearment into something that will never exist.