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it's been a week without the bottle.
i stare down my alley at the water in elliott bay and west seattle. sometimes i try to catch the bright glow of the steel refinery. sometimes i hope to catch the cabin lights of a ferry - reflecting off the night sky, mirrored in water. almost all of the time i try to imagine what this area looked like before anybody got here. it must have been beautiful.
this week:
get a psychiatrist
consolidate student loans
breath
i still don't know why i'm unhappy most of the time, but i know that i am. it's evident in my writing, in my clothes, in my itunes catalog, in my love life. it's absurd to ignore it and it's unhealthy to continue to spend my time dumbing it down. this is life and this is what it is for me.
i stare down my alley at the water in elliott bay and west seattle. sometimes i try to catch the bright glow of the steel refinery. sometimes i hope to catch the cabin lights of a ferry - reflecting off the night sky, mirrored in water. almost all of the time i try to imagine what this area looked like before anybody got here. it must have been beautiful.
this week:
get a psychiatrist
consolidate student loans
breath
i still don't know why i'm unhappy most of the time, but i know that i am. it's evident in my writing, in my clothes, in my itunes catalog, in my love life. it's absurd to ignore it and it's unhealthy to continue to spend my time dumbing it down. this is life and this is what it is for me.