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Today was Palm Sunday... which means a LONG mass haha. Except today didn't seem long (even though it was like 2 1/2 hours haha). I think it was the music... while going through the Stations of the Cross some of the most amazing music ever was sang. My mom even got teary eyed... I asked if she was alright, but I know it was the music, it was touching. I was just surprised... if you know me well then you know why.
So I most definitely needed that, you have no idea. Matty... and Dianna... I had some of the biggest questions EVER for those two... I wasn't questioning God... but what I was questioning... it was down right dark and scary, I won't even say, because my thoughts would probably scare you, and I thought things through, so I might as well not scare anyone.
I definitely kept asking God for a sign. To prove me wrong. Nothing felt right, the music was touching, but it didn't answer anything.
God does give signs. Even if you don't particulary want them at the time. We went out to lunch after, and my dad kept having to get the waitresses attention because Dianna came later and he had to reorder stuff and so forth, then he wanted to move and... I just felt so bad for the waitress. I guess people have to be flexible sometimes. But yeah, Lowell and Rose decided to join us for lunch. And at first I didn't want to make more trouble for her... but Lowell... he was definitely my sign.
So I asked him all of my questions. And I think... he answered them better than anyone else could have. He gave me some amazing analogies. He has NO idea how much he helped me, no idea. But I did tell him that there should be Handy Dandy Pocket Lowells that all people should have, so whenever you have a question you can ask it.
The Passion Play ended up going very well! I was quite pleased. My parents liked it too, which made me happy. Things have been better with them lately, which also makes me happy. :) An amazing job to all those actors and actresses as well. To go up on stage and not forget your lines... not have your heart beat so fast that you have a heart attack and die... I admire you all!!!
And the pizza cast party afterwards was yummy!
I am going to be the best person that I can be... and nobody can stop me. muwhaha. :)
And please, pray for Chris Morrison. His appendix burst last night and he got surgery today. His mom called me this morning, apparently he wanted me to know of all people, which quite surprised me. Just pray that he gets better quick! (his poor girlfriend-- i can only wonder how she feels right now)
i love you alllll! (short week YES!)