damn hell ass
ok so....when I finally meet someone that is my age and awesome and everything i have ever wanted in a girlfriend, guess what? She doesn't want a boyfriend. Not a boyfriend at all. So am I supposed to just wait around until she does? Should I just forget about her? I know I can't just stay friends with her. I feel much more than that. I can not just stand by when the first girl in about two plus years that has actually sparked my interest tells me that she doesn't want a boyfriend. I mean FUCK. How am I supposed to react to that? Should I just be a fucking robot like everyone else on this fucking planet? I can try my hardest to turn off my feelings about everything and see how that works. I guess that will be my plan for the week. Have no feelings. And go!!!.....fuck i just thought something. I failed already. Well godammit. How how how.....FUCK this life. I should just go to the damn desert and be by my damn self. i'm out