playing the sore loser
Well, my gut was right: i got cast one of the most minor roles possible. I was, naturally, upset, but I decided I would go and tell Mr. Lacy, the director, that I wasnt going to participate. Thats all I was gonna say, until I saw the look on Charissa's face and how upset she was that she didnt get a good role. Why was she so upset? Because Mr. Lacy had been saying alllll year, 'charissa, quit cheerleading and be in drama' 'i wish you had been in more plays, Charissa', blah blah blah. So, understandably, she felt betrayed.
So she was flip flopping her decision to stay or not around, not sure. Karen wants her and Jarrett to be in a play together (?), so I'm thinking Charissa might do it anyway, even though the role is an embaressment considering its meant for a guy.
But whatever. As soon as I got there someone said to me "The cast is so fucked." Everyone agreed that the casting just wasnt right, and that some people in particular didnt deserve the roles they got at all. When I told Mr. Lacy that I wasnt staying for the reading, he wasnt sure if I was serious or not. I was so nervous, my hands were shaking. I dont know what he said, something like 'so what are you going to do now?', and I spat out something to the effect of 'well, I guess I'll just go to my agency and see whats around in Boston'. Yeah. Bitchy!
But I'm sorry... I know I'm gonna sound stupid, no matter how I say it, but I know I'm a good actress. I've been told that many, many times, and I've had many people come up to me and tell me that, people who I've never met before. I dont need some award to tell me that; I know I'm good. So to be cast as something so stupid, I was, frankly, insulted. I knew I didnt do too well on my audition, I overacted alot... but I know I did better then alot of the people who were cast. How do I know? The people who are in the cast told me.
But thats not the reason I'm not doing the play. The real reason is that I just happen to have better things to do with my time then to come to rehearsals 5 times a week to be there for a role that only requires me for 3.2 minutes. Sure, I'd meet people, probly make some friends, but I'd rather be making money working or even doing another play; I'm going to visit John Robert Powers tomorrow and see whats up theatre-wise. Maybe I'll take some classes or something, its been a while since I've been in a play. I'm gonna be doing theatre at Salve though, and hopefully some summer stuff.
So, I'm going job hunting some more tomorrow, then I might go to Boston, then I'm going out with Mals. Tomorrow deff promises to be a better day :)
So she was flip flopping her decision to stay or not around, not sure. Karen wants her and Jarrett to be in a play together (?), so I'm thinking Charissa might do it anyway, even though the role is an embaressment considering its meant for a guy.
But whatever. As soon as I got there someone said to me "The cast is so fucked." Everyone agreed that the casting just wasnt right, and that some people in particular didnt deserve the roles they got at all. When I told Mr. Lacy that I wasnt staying for the reading, he wasnt sure if I was serious or not. I was so nervous, my hands were shaking. I dont know what he said, something like 'so what are you going to do now?', and I spat out something to the effect of 'well, I guess I'll just go to my agency and see whats around in Boston'. Yeah. Bitchy!
But I'm sorry... I know I'm gonna sound stupid, no matter how I say it, but I know I'm a good actress. I've been told that many, many times, and I've had many people come up to me and tell me that, people who I've never met before. I dont need some award to tell me that; I know I'm good. So to be cast as something so stupid, I was, frankly, insulted. I knew I didnt do too well on my audition, I overacted alot... but I know I did better then alot of the people who were cast. How do I know? The people who are in the cast told me.
But thats not the reason I'm not doing the play. The real reason is that I just happen to have better things to do with my time then to come to rehearsals 5 times a week to be there for a role that only requires me for 3.2 minutes. Sure, I'd meet people, probly make some friends, but I'd rather be making money working or even doing another play; I'm going to visit John Robert Powers tomorrow and see whats up theatre-wise. Maybe I'll take some classes or something, its been a while since I've been in a play. I'm gonna be doing theatre at Salve though, and hopefully some summer stuff.
So, I'm going job hunting some more tomorrow, then I might go to Boston, then I'm going out with Mals. Tomorrow deff promises to be a better day :)